Anothertry
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Your going great Detente! I'm rooting for you!
I still find myself acting out with technology in a way that seems to be a substitute for my compulsive Reddit issue. I'm mindlessly swiping through profiles on dating apps, and focusing on women's answers to sex questions on OK Cupid. Most ominously, I've bookmarked or "liked" or even written to some women mainly based on the potential to have sex with them. I'm wasting my time and not focusing on women who would probably be a better fit for me (i.e., kind, sweet, down-to-earth). Part of me does want some kinkiness in a relationship (I think -- or maybe it's just what I think when I'm not in one), but that may be possible with someone who's a good fit for me.
Dear Detente....I wish you well.. you have killed the 'little monster' the brain chemical stuff. You seem to be good with the 'big monster' the brain wash stuff. However, what I have seen is when you start avoiding people, things or situations ( phone in your case) you are transferring too much power to this illusory monster PMO. Please be aware of this. The strange thing is once you become aware of this..you can still check news as often as before but your mind will be clear that you are there only for news. You get what I am saying ? Wish you the best.Detente said:Day 36.
No real risk or temptation today. Pretty good weekend of hiking yesterday and going to a meeting of some people with a common interest. Working on some new nutrition approaches. Going out of town this week, but right now I don't feel too worried about a relapse. Still need to delete some dating apps. Still wasting my time a bit on some. Not sure why I'm not able to do it. I guess I have several "collected" matches that I don't want to give up, even though I haven't initiated any conversations with them.