Day 8 ? or it should be day 8 ?
I went into day 7 having cut all my ties to online stimulation, and ready to face the new work week. I was apprehensive about being isolated in my private home office, where my well-established habit of working naked in front of the webcam would take over. I expressed that fear in yesterday?s entry and several folks on this forum advised me to move.
Unfortunately it was too late. Even without the pictures and webcams, I MO?d for the first time in a week. The trigger ? open the office ? then off with the clothes, start to manipulate my dick, was all too strong. I wish I could say it gave me pleasure, that it was the sensory experience promised at the end of this journey. But it was just the same old release allowing me to focus back on my work. Just another day at the office. I am not ashamed, just pissed off.
So here I am at Day 1 again. I have started my workday downstairs, next to my wife?s workshop. There will probably be interruptions throughout the day, but nothing like what I faced upstairs in isolation. I have moved from the environment that enabled this behavior. I would wager that my productivity today will be higher than it has been for a while.
There is a strong message: identify the triggers and remove them, all of them. It?s all or nothing.
Day 1 again.