65 days!!!
I am happy to say I have made immense progress! Still nowhere near 100%, but I am feeling better. The emotional roller coaster is in my opinion the hardest part through this process. If you can get over that hurdle you should be free sailing. I often need to remember that this refocus is about me and learning to cope with the daily ups and downs along with quitting something that has played a negative role in our lives.
Something positive to talk about! So, I am an avid fly fisherman. Walking the streams, breathing in the fresh air, catching one of the worlds most beautiful fish and spending that quality time with my dad is something I have always looked forward too. I used to have this sense of calm on a stream. This relaxation unlike any other. A few years back I noticed I wasn't feeling this anymore. I didn't look forward to it as much as I used to. I stopped going all the time and this really bothered me. I have come to the realization that this had everything to do with my porn addiction. I was not enjoying the things I have always enjoyed doing with the same passion and feeling of relax. Well, over the past weekend, I found that relax again!!! I fished a new stream unlike any other with my dad and it was AWESOME! I finally got that feeling back where nothing in the world mattered at that moment other than me walking that stream. I even meditated for 20 minutes taking in all of the sounds and smells that surrounded me. Was truly a life changing experience.
If any of you have lost that sense of passion for something and are wondering if it will ever come back through this process, IT DOES!!!
Keep up the hard work guys and gals,
ImOnMyWay
I am happy to say I have made immense progress! Still nowhere near 100%, but I am feeling better. The emotional roller coaster is in my opinion the hardest part through this process. If you can get over that hurdle you should be free sailing. I often need to remember that this refocus is about me and learning to cope with the daily ups and downs along with quitting something that has played a negative role in our lives.
Something positive to talk about! So, I am an avid fly fisherman. Walking the streams, breathing in the fresh air, catching one of the worlds most beautiful fish and spending that quality time with my dad is something I have always looked forward too. I used to have this sense of calm on a stream. This relaxation unlike any other. A few years back I noticed I wasn't feeling this anymore. I didn't look forward to it as much as I used to. I stopped going all the time and this really bothered me. I have come to the realization that this had everything to do with my porn addiction. I was not enjoying the things I have always enjoyed doing with the same passion and feeling of relax. Well, over the past weekend, I found that relax again!!! I fished a new stream unlike any other with my dad and it was AWESOME! I finally got that feeling back where nothing in the world mattered at that moment other than me walking that stream. I even meditated for 20 minutes taking in all of the sounds and smells that surrounded me. Was truly a life changing experience.
If any of you have lost that sense of passion for something and are wondering if it will ever come back through this process, IT DOES!!!
Keep up the hard work guys and gals,
ImOnMyWay