94 days
I am finding that I am loosing count of days. I keep having to go back and count haha. So where am I in my reboot?? Well, the night I came home from vacation I had a girl over for a relaxed wine and movie night. We cuddled on the couch and I will say for once I wasn't nervous about anything. I could tell I was getting aroused and I know she was too. I didn't react though.... It's okay. I am learning to not let the thought of performing scare me from enjoying the moment. I was relaxed and just let the night go as it chose to. I will have a chance next time I am sure of it.
Confidence is way up as I wanted to work on while on vacation. My feelings are up and down, but I'll take that as just life being life. A friend and I discussed relationships and he helped me to understand that I should be able to hang and have sex with a woman without the pressure of a relationship. He said if you and her both want to have fun, then a relationship is clearly not on her mind.
I will say that I am feeling a bit more up these days in terms of my "Men". Morning wood is great which is a huge plus from when I started this journey. I will say I MO'ed on the 90th day to sensation and to no fantasizing as a pat on the back and it felt okay. I was more sensitive than before the 90 days which is an improvement. Not really what I expected it to be. This is good though. I haven't thought about doing it since then. My focus is on landing my lady friend.
Goals this week are as follows:
1) Maintain my workout and improve on my lifting
2) Become more comfortable about being in a situation with a woman and not putting so much pressure on a relationship and more on the sex
3) Incorporate more thought and feeling into my meditation.
As you can see my focus is less and less on my men performing and more on ways to improve myself in many other ways. Forgetting about them allows you to live a little without that pressure of "OH WILL THEY WORK".
I'll keep you posted on my lady friend.
ImOnMyWay - to successful sex!!
I am finding that I am loosing count of days. I keep having to go back and count haha. So where am I in my reboot?? Well, the night I came home from vacation I had a girl over for a relaxed wine and movie night. We cuddled on the couch and I will say for once I wasn't nervous about anything. I could tell I was getting aroused and I know she was too. I didn't react though.... It's okay. I am learning to not let the thought of performing scare me from enjoying the moment. I was relaxed and just let the night go as it chose to. I will have a chance next time I am sure of it.
Confidence is way up as I wanted to work on while on vacation. My feelings are up and down, but I'll take that as just life being life. A friend and I discussed relationships and he helped me to understand that I should be able to hang and have sex with a woman without the pressure of a relationship. He said if you and her both want to have fun, then a relationship is clearly not on her mind.
I will say that I am feeling a bit more up these days in terms of my "Men". Morning wood is great which is a huge plus from when I started this journey. I will say I MO'ed on the 90th day to sensation and to no fantasizing as a pat on the back and it felt okay. I was more sensitive than before the 90 days which is an improvement. Not really what I expected it to be. This is good though. I haven't thought about doing it since then. My focus is on landing my lady friend.
Goals this week are as follows:
1) Maintain my workout and improve on my lifting
2) Become more comfortable about being in a situation with a woman and not putting so much pressure on a relationship and more on the sex
3) Incorporate more thought and feeling into my meditation.
As you can see my focus is less and less on my men performing and more on ways to improve myself in many other ways. Forgetting about them allows you to live a little without that pressure of "OH WILL THEY WORK".
I'll keep you posted on my lady friend.
ImOnMyWay - to successful sex!!