The final countdown

[dusty]

25th day. Thank you guys.

Yep, Achilles, i'm going for it 

i'm in a good mood, everything is just fine. Had a dream about sex but not a wet one.

 

[No regrets]

You're thought of, remembered, and happily wished an especially wonderful day!

 

[dusty]

29th day and almost a full month without PMO. It's a good reboot and I hope that i'll be free in the close future. 

Last days were a little harder because of arousal but it's not a really hard fight. When some p-related thoughts cross my mind I simply try to think about sth else or how porn is bad for me.

 

[Lero]

29th day and almost a full month without PMO. It's a good reboot and I hope that i'll be free in the close future. 

Last days were a little harder because of arousal but it's not a really hard fight. When some p-related thoughts cross my mind I simply try to think about sth else or how porn is bad for me.

God damn awesome achievement so far, man! Keep going.

 

[dusty]

Do you know this meme" 'ah shit, here we go again'

So I'm again here and it's a fucking vicious circle.

1st stage -> porn is awful, I have to change my life, it's going in the wrong direction
2nd stage -> yee' it's going better, I'm clean, maybe sometimes more horny but not so bad
3rd stage -> ok, i'm already quite fine, i suppose porn is not so bad and i'm not addicted, so maybe i'll use it time to time
4th stage -> oh shit, here we go again

I just PMO'ed and it's my day 0. I'll update this journal every fucking day. Please give me some motivation. Because all what I see here is that almost everyone is constatly failing.

Cheers

30th day and I've just noticed that 3rd stage is coming, hahaha Today I was thinking that PMO is not so bad and everyone does it. But I can't be scammed by my brain tricks!

Happy to have a full month without p!

 

[Lero]

Do you know this meme" 'ah shit, here we go again'

So I'm again here and it's a fucking vicious circle.

1st stage -> porn is awful, I have to change my life, it's going in the wrong direction
2nd stage -> yee' it's going better, I'm clean, maybe sometimes more horny but not so bad
3rd stage -> ok, i'm already quite fine, i suppose porn is not so bad and i'm not addicted, so maybe i'll use it time to time
4th stage -> oh shit, here we go again

I just PMO'ed and it's my day 0. I'll update this journal every fucking day. Please give me some motivation. Because all what I see here is that almost everyone is constatly failing.

Cheers

30th day and I've just noticed that 3rd stage is coming, hahaha Today I was thinking that PMO is not so bad and everyone does it. But I can't be scammed by my brain tricks!

Happy to have a full month without p!

The brain does this trick to us and makes us feel that the "pain from back then" is just a distant memory now. I've noticed this anytime I swore I wasn't going to drink against after the hardest hangover ever, only to miss alcohol and think about the fun 1 month later.

 

[dusty]

Do you know this meme" 'ah shit, here we go again'

So I'm again here and it's a fucking vicious circle.

1st stage -> porn is awful, I have to change my life, it's going in the wrong direction
2nd stage -> yee' it's going better, I'm clean, maybe sometimes more horny but not so bad
3rd stage -> ok, i'm already quite fine, i suppose porn is not so bad and i'm not addicted, so maybe i'll use it time to time
4th stage -> oh shit, here we go again

I just PMO'ed and it's my day 0. I'll update this journal every fucking day. Please give me some motivation. Because all what I see here is that almost everyone is constatly failing.

Cheers

30th day and I've just noticed that 3rd stage is coming, hahaha Today I was thinking that PMO is not so bad and everyone does it. But I can't be scammed by my brain tricks!

Happy to have a full month without p!

The brain does this trick to us and makes us feel that the "pain from back then" is just a distant memory now. I've noticed this anytime I swore I wasn't going to drink against after the hardest hangover ever, only to miss alcohol and think about the fun 1 month later.

Thanks Lero, you're right. Our brain is a sneaky bitch sometimes Although it sounds ridiculous  we need to outsmart our brain sometimes

 

[No regrets]

You are more important than your mistakes. You are always, always more important than your mistakes 

i know i could be more realistic and say " I hope you have an okay day" or "I hope you don't have a bad day" But they're my hopes, and i'm allowed to hope for anything i want! And i hope you have a great day today! A FANTASTIC day! A DOWNRIGHT AMAZING day!        ... and you can't stop me!

 

[achilles heel]

30th day and I've just noticed that 3rd stage is coming, hahaha Today I was thinking that PMO is not so bad and everyone does it. But I can't be scammed by my brain tricks!

Happy to have a full month without p!

Congratulations! Amazing progress and good to see you anticipate the tricks your brain plays, stay aware and keep going! 

 

[dusty]

Thank you guys, you're motivating me so much  8)

35th day so 5 weeks without PMO. It's not so bad, I had a little more cravings lately but nothing which i can't cope. Very happy to have this streak!

 

[No regrets]

I see you struggle everyday, just know that you are loved and the you are killing it everyday
You are so strong, and I know you try so hard to do your best- and it IS good enough  ;D

 

[dusty]

I'm so sorry guys, but I relapsed yesterday. It's mostly because of the fact that I'm at my home which reminds me of PMO so much.

IN SHORT: It started in the evening when I was reading articles about P, I think I started to look on purpose for articles which are against the theory of porn addiction. After that I lost my self-control and gave myself a permission to PMO.

I'm counting yesterday as a day 0, so my reboot lasted 42 days. It's not a length of which I could be especially proud but it's my second best streak anyway. I don't panic and I hope that this time gave my brain a lot of bemefits. Therefore I start counting like this is my:

Day 42.1

to keep my motivation.

Be stronger than me friends, good luck.

1,5 year ago and i'm here again. BUT WITHOUT RELAPSE. So it's going to be a better reboot for sure.


BUT last days weren't good guys.

I had opressive thoughts about porn and sex. Not the very hard cravings but constant and tiring. My mood is much worser than at the beginning of the reboot and I don't see any benefits. But i keep going.

 

[Kraken]

I'm so sorry guys, but I relapsed yesterday. It's mostly because of the fact that I'm at my home which reminds me of PMO so much.

IN SHORT: It started in the evening when I was reading articles about P, I think I started to look on purpose for articles which are against the theory of porn addiction. After that I lost my self-control and gave myself a permission to PMO.

I'm counting yesterday as a day 0, so my reboot lasted 42 days. It's not a length of which I could be especially proud but it's my second best streak anyway. I don't panic and I hope that this time gave my brain a lot of bemefits. Therefore I start counting like this is my:

Day 42.1

to keep my motivation.

Be stronger than me friends, good luck.

1,5 year ago and i'm here again. BUT WITHOUT RELAPSE. So it's going to be a better reboot for sure.


BUT last days weren't good guys.

I had opressive thoughts about porn and sex. Not the very hard cravings but constant and tiring. My mood is much worser than at the beginning of the reboot and I don't see any benefits. But i keep going.

Stay the course sir, stay the course!  You're doing so well.

 

[Numez]

1,5 year ago and i'm here again. BUT WITHOUT RELAPSE. So it's going to be a better reboot for sure.


BUT last days weren't good guys.

I had opressive thoughts about porn and sex. Not the very hard cravings but constant and tiring. My mood is much worser than at the beginning of the reboot and I don't see any benefits. But i keep going.

what do you mean by this? you are currently 1.5 years without relapse? what you mean by last days? do you mean last few days?

 

[achilles heel]

1,5 year ago and i'm here again. BUT WITHOUT RELAPSE. So it's going to be a better reboot for sure.


BUT last days weren't good guys.

I had opressive thoughts about porn and sex. Not the very hard cravings but constant and tiring. My mood is much worser than at the beginning of the reboot and I don't see any benefits. But i keep going.

what do you mean by this? you are currently 1.5 years without relapse? what you mean by last days? do you mean last few days?

I guess he means he reached 42 days clean after 1.5 years again, but relapsed that same day the last time he made it this far...

Congratulations on that huge success, dusty! 

 

[dusty]

Thank you guys!

Yes, exactly Achilles, I meant what you wrote. 1,5 year ago I had a streak of 42 days but relapsed.

Now it's my 44th day without PMO. So it's my second best streak in life.

 

[dusty]

50th day. I had hard moments during the weekend but it's a little bit easier for me to control myself after these 7 weeks without p. I haven't seen a spectacular effects already but it's possible that they'll never come. It could be a slow, constant process and some day I will realise what happened and think "fuck, i'm a different man"  ;D

Cheers

 

[achilles heel]

50th day. I had hard moments during the weekend but it's a little bit easier for me to control myself after these 7 weeks without p. I haven't seen a spectacular effects already but it's possible that they'll never come. It could be a slow, constant process and some day I will realise what happened and think "fuck, i'm a different man"  ;D

Cheers

That's the right way, don't let high expectations make you doubt your way. Step by step you'll become who you want to be. 

 

[Kraken]

50th day. I had hard moments during the weekend but it's a little bit easier for me to control myself after these 7 weeks without p. I haven't seen a spectacular effects already but it's possible that they'll never come. It could be a slow, constant process and some day I will realise what happened and think "fuck, i'm a different man"  ;D

Cheers

This happened to me when I did my 5 month long backpacking trip.  I felt pretty much the same until one day my backpack hip belt kept falling off and I went to tighten it and realized it didn't go any tighter.  I lost 30 pounds without realizing it just by taking things one small piece at a time.

 

[dusty]

Thank you squid and achilles. I appreciate your presence here