Unfortunately, I let myself down and had a lapse at the end of my week away for work. Got to the hotel room on my last night, quite late and tired and started purposelessly channel flipping and began to slide down the slippery slope. It continued when I got home the following day. Things had generally been going well at work during the week but I had a bit of a set-back on the last day. Not sure if that affected my attitude and resilience.
There are a few trends here:
The first seems to be that I?m more vulnerable when I?m away from home and out of my usual routine.
Also I seem to coast along pretty well for a while with not much in the way of craving for a few weeks, but then when I see the funnel I sometimes can?t resist dancing on the edge of it with the inevitable consequences.
Tiredness, being upset or in other ways being emotionally out of kilter make me more likely to fall.
Of course I probably already knew all of the above, but it still hasn?t stopped me eliminating the lapses. The good news is
I have several similar trips coming up which will allow me opportunities to perfect my tactics to stay clean.
The other positive is that my two lapses this year have so far not degenerated into major binges as I had over the Christmas break.
Joepanic, Jbow, many thanks for your recent encouragement. Reading your comments here and in your own journals has helped me to be determined to get back on my horse and keep on trekking, even though it has been and will continue to be along journey.
Keep Trekking everybody.
1 Day Clean.