So i failed. PMO after 8-days. Why? because i'm an addict.
Those 8-days were something else tho'. The first 4, terrible, all the classic w/drawal symptoms. The last 4, great, ran a 10k race in under an hour, an odd feeling of happiness returned, things were looking up.
Then yesterday, my alter ego - the depressed self indulgent jackass shows up. W/in a couple of minutes of PMO the good feeling went away, and panic set in, impending doom, palpitations, headaches, i never felt anything like this, my stomach even hurt, i didnt sleep a wink. For most of the day i've had intrusive suicidal thoughts - hell has returned.
So, why write a post? Maybe just a log for myself, and in a few days when i feel good, just read this for some inspiration.
Why did i fail? Because i was depressed and that's always been my solution to feeling down - look at porn.
But, all is not lost, i saw some light at the end of this tunnel, and it felt great. So I'll start again.
Neway, if your struggling w/ porn w/drawal symptoms today, take it from me, stay strong, the grass isn't greener on this side, in fact there is no grass, just pain.
All the best.
Those 8-days were something else tho'. The first 4, terrible, all the classic w/drawal symptoms. The last 4, great, ran a 10k race in under an hour, an odd feeling of happiness returned, things were looking up.
Then yesterday, my alter ego - the depressed self indulgent jackass shows up. W/in a couple of minutes of PMO the good feeling went away, and panic set in, impending doom, palpitations, headaches, i never felt anything like this, my stomach even hurt, i didnt sleep a wink. For most of the day i've had intrusive suicidal thoughts - hell has returned.
So, why write a post? Maybe just a log for myself, and in a few days when i feel good, just read this for some inspiration.
Why did i fail? Because i was depressed and that's always been my solution to feeling down - look at porn.
But, all is not lost, i saw some light at the end of this tunnel, and it felt great. So I'll start again.
Neway, if your struggling w/ porn w/drawal symptoms today, take it from me, stay strong, the grass isn't greener on this side, in fact there is no grass, just pain.
All the best.