The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly
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Completed my goal of 30-days clean, so kudos to me 
There has been improvements, my baseline mood has improved - most of the time i feel pretty good, and what anxiety i had isn't really an issue. I can easily brush off any intrusive thoughts now, which is great because they are horrible.
My libido has plummeted and my sleep sucks but I'll keep pushing forward as I'm determined that this blog ends as a success story!
There has been improvements, my baseline mood has improved - most of the time i feel pretty good, and what anxiety i had isn't really an issue. I can easily brush off any intrusive thoughts now, which is great because they are horrible.
My libido has plummeted and my sleep sucks but I'll keep pushing forward as I'm determined that this blog ends as a success story!
Thanks EnoughEnough said:
Up until about three-weeks ago i haven't made it past two-weeks w/out pmo or mo in 10+ years, and thought i never would, so if i can u can! My advice (for what its worth) - take it day-by-day, and take some exercise if you can. I'm not out of the woods myself, but i have been happier the last few days so keep fighting.Day 35
Its been a couple of days since my last update. The last few days have been tough. The urges are there but, as they say, it would be like trying to play pool with a rope instead of a pool cue!
I had a great morning - played guitar, and went for a run, it felt great, but then the afternoon my energy went and i became anxious and flat, and now just want to nap.
Overall i do feel better so I'll persevere...
Its been a couple of days since my last update. The last few days have been tough. The urges are there but, as they say, it would be like trying to play pool with a rope instead of a pool cue!
I had a great morning - played guitar, and went for a run, it felt great, but then the afternoon my energy went and i became anxious and flat, and now just want to nap.
Overall i do feel better so I'll persevere...
Day 40
I've felt great the last few days My energy has hit the roof - I'm just back from a 10km run, and I'm going to hit the weights after this post.
I decided that I would let my body work its way through this flatline (rather than worrying) and when my libido returns, it returns. This has taken away a lot of pressure, and I'm just concentrating on getting fit.
Peace
I've felt great the last few days
My energy has hit the roof - I'm just back from a 10km run, and I'm going to hit the weights after this post.I decided that I would let my body work its way through this flatline (rather than worrying) and when my libido returns, it returns. This has taken away a lot of pressure, and I'm just concentrating on getting fit.
Peace
Wow nearly 45-days
I'm getting urges, flashbacks even, but I continue to abstain. The names of my "fav" porn actresses pop in to my mind every so often, just so I don't forget their names ya know lol It's not easy but I am managing to brush them aside.
At times I've wondered am I really a porn addict? I guess my brain is playing tricks on me and would love a dopamine hit. I've heard that trick a few times now though, and I just ignore the thoughts, as I'm better w/out porn and fapping and now know that i could never be happy with such a shitty life.
I'm starting to feel more intelligent, or at least the brain fog is starting to lift and I'm getting back to normal lol I had serious brain fog at one stage, and found it very difficult to remember things.
I feel happier in myself, and my confidence is on its way back. I know it's gonna take time to recovery and get my life back on track, but at least its happening, albeit very slowly.
Cheers
I'm getting urges, flashbacks even, but I continue to abstain. The names of my "fav" porn actresses pop in to my mind every so often, just so I don't forget their names ya know lol It's not easy but I am managing to brush them aside.
At times I've wondered am I really a porn addict? I guess my brain is playing tricks on me and would love a dopamine hit. I've heard that trick a few times now though, and I just ignore the thoughts, as I'm better w/out porn and fapping and now know that i could never be happy with such a shitty life.
I'm starting to feel more intelligent, or at least the brain fog is starting to lift and I'm getting back to normal lol I had serious brain fog at one stage, and found it very difficult to remember things.
I feel happier in myself, and my confidence is on its way back. I know it's gonna take time to recovery and get my life back on track, but at least its happening, albeit very slowly.
Cheers
rodrigo_reboot
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Your story gives me hope and a lot of motivation. Thanks for sharing.
I hope I can get where you are. Congratulations man! And keep posting for us.
I hope I can get where you are. Congratulations man! And keep posting for us.
Day 46
So halfway into my 90-day reboot! The benefits and struggles I'm noticing at the moment are listed below. For the first time, in along time, I feel alive ;D It hasn't been easy, and I'm still vulnerable, but I'm optimistic at the moment that I can beat this.
Benefits so far:
- Most of the time I've tons of energy
- less anxious
- Intrusive thoughts are less frequent and less intense
- Depression is lifting
- More sociable
- Happier
Struggles at the mo:
- Sleep is terrible
- libido is virtually nonexistent
Cheers
So halfway into my 90-day reboot! The benefits and struggles I'm noticing at the moment are listed below. For the first time, in along time, I feel alive ;D It hasn't been easy, and I'm still vulnerable, but I'm optimistic at the moment that I can beat this.
Benefits so far:
- Most of the time I've tons of energy
- less anxious
- Intrusive thoughts are less frequent and less intense
- Depression is lifting
- More sociable
- Happier
Struggles at the mo:
- Sleep is terrible
- libido is virtually nonexistent
Cheers