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Lero
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I only slept for three hours and woke up feeling completely like shit. I struggled to keep my eyes open enough to drag myself, painfully, out of the bed.
Lero said:Momentary "pump up" will not work in the long run. You get overly motivated this minute and tell yourself: "I will do it this time! I will be mentally strong and push through it!" But after a period of time, you are back to the beginning. Hard victories are achieved only after following a plan that makes you be trained. You don't win the World Cup by only shouting motivational things to yourself. Hard work, dedication and trying again after loses. As much as you want to tell yourself quitting P is easy, the truth is that it's hard. If it was easy, we wouldn't be 100 guys here struggling for years. We need to take this seriously. "Yeah, but by telling yourself this, you give P too much power!" said X. Sure, but the truth still stands, no matter how you perceive it yourself. Quitting P is still hard, even if you think it's easy.
BlueHeronFan said:Great thoughts. The fact is that P has power. If it didn't, none of us would be here. I think it's a healthy thing to acknowledge the power that it has. It makes us more realistic about how we have to take care of ourselves. Pretending that all we need is some motivational phrases isn't going to get us where we need to go, and it will probably just make us underestimate the problem.
I'm with you. It's going to take work, but it's good work and we can't give up.
BlueHeronFan said:Way to recognize your patterns and to prepare yourself and get through the day. That's a big deal. For a long time, I wasn't really aware that I was on a regular cycle, and I usually thought I was doing better than I really was. When I started counting days, I realized that my relapses were happening at regular intervals. If you can see it coming and recognize that it's always possibly coming back, you can deal with it way more effectively.
Sending you more strength and encouragement for another day!
Lero said:I'm sabotaging myself like an idiot. Sometimes I get this feeling like I know everything I should do but I don't do it at all.
BlueHeronFan said:It would probably be helpful to go back in time and retrace the steps that lead to your binges/lapses. I think you're right on in thinking that alcohol might be related. Really think about the things (feelings, behaviors, thoughts) that come before a relapse.
(staring more at girls around town, feeling hopeless, etc.) It can be difficult because it means looking for behaviors that might seems harmless (I'm single, so why not stare at girls when I'm out and about, right?) but that ultimately lead to trouble