Days 8 and 9 were spent away with my girlfriend, and I remained sober from porn. We had sex a couple of times, and I'm having some mild-to-moderate cravings to watch porn or masturbate this morning, but, really, there is no need. I realise now this 'feeling' is just a neurochemical reaction. It's so empowering to reduce it to what it is, and to not be overwhelmed by an urge. Probably everyone out there knows this, but Gary Wilson's book YBOP is essential reading for anyone who has battled with this problem.
The intimacy and closeness with my girlfriend during sex is the polar opposite to the cold isolation of watching porn. So, today I'm not going to act on the neurochemical reaction that is happening in my brain. The craving is mild, tolerable, but previously I would have automatically acted on it. Instead, today I'm going to be grateful for being close to my girlfriend.
I am mindful that I have become dependent on ED medication for the past couple of years to have sex. I lost confidence in my ability to keep an erection, because I started to suffer with some degree of PIED, and a possible next step will be to stop using that. One step at a time, but it's in my mind as a definite future goal.
The intimacy and closeness with my girlfriend during sex is the polar opposite to the cold isolation of watching porn. So, today I'm not going to act on the neurochemical reaction that is happening in my brain. The craving is mild, tolerable, but previously I would have automatically acted on it. Instead, today I'm going to be grateful for being close to my girlfriend.
I am mindful that I have become dependent on ED medication for the past couple of years to have sex. I lost confidence in my ability to keep an erection, because I started to suffer with some degree of PIED, and a possible next step will be to stop using that. One step at a time, but it's in my mind as a definite future goal.