I'm without home-internet since the 20th of February. Since then, I had a 7-day run without porn that ended on the 27th. The week until then had been great. Having no internet access at home significantly increased my productivity, but also my social confidence and overall clarity.
I had a 2-day seminar at university and was flirting with a pretty cute and attractive girl there. She gave me various signs that she was interested in me and just interacting with her with that special intense eye contact felt great. I didn't take it futher than that though, I wasn't really prepared for a situation like this. The next step would have been to initiate physical contact as she clearly gave me multiple opportunities to do so and I'll take it as a lesson for similar situations in the future.
After that it was easy to not think of any pornstars or instagram models for a few days and I felt that my sexual desires were more connected to the real world. I also started socializing more and it surprised me how I'm considerably more confident in that than before my social isolation. Unfortunately I only rarely see attractive girls at university, probably my standards are too high now because of all these artifical girls, so after a few days my thoughts wandered back into the world of the internet.
Even without an internet connection I found a way to access it: I still have an internet flatrate on my phone that I needed for travelling and although all the data volumne was used up, I could access all the images I wanted to see by waiting a few minutes until they loaded. It was a gradual escalation over days, first just allowing myself to see that one picture, then a few hours later to see it again and an additional one and so on. The peak was reached when I bought myself new high speed data for what would be about $3 in the US to load pictures faster. The worst thing I did was watching about 10 previews of porn videos, due to the limited high speed data I couldn't click on them. At least the relapse wasn't as bad as the previous ones.
The modification I need to make is to remove my sim card from my phone as soon as I get home and then put it to a hardly accessible place (the top of my wardrobe). As absurd as it sounds, there are moments where I just can't control the temptation to see a certain picture that's stuck in my memory and sometimes I would even pay a little amount to see it.
Yesterday when I masturbated after my relapse I noticed that my erection wasn't fully hard. I noticed that a few times already, usually I would just switch to one of my all-time favourite scenes and then everything would be great again. I'm not sure if it was because of being tired or if it might be a sign of PIED. The latter is a scary thought that would increase my incentive to abstrain from artificial sexual stimulation heavily. I'm still able to get a full erection by pure imagination but this ability is highly dependent on my energy level.
So now I'll start counting from zero again. I have to remind myself everyday: As soon as I see a single picture, my mind becomes obsessed and won't stop until I fap after watching such pictures for at least an hour. Yes, there are incredibly looking women out there who feel like a cheat-code to my biological nature and yes, if I want to have full integity I have to admit that having sex with women like that is a big dream but I won't get anywhere by just watching their pictures.