DAY 01
I let me frustration to generate something positive and I decided to live like "I was there." I feel like I spent my whole life waiting for something to happen before I start enjoying life (enough money, being free from PMO, being absolutely healthy, and so on).
I am now creating my ideal life piece by piece. I started running this morning. 20 minutes were all it took me to realize how much out of shape I am. But I plan on keep running every morning if possible.
I felt great after the run. Boys, try cardio! We all focus on working out while rebooting, probably because we want to be "real men" after reboot and have all these muscles but cardio proved for me to be much more beneficial as far as mood improving goes.
goingpublic: Thanks for the tip with smiling and the link. I don't think my PIED would take so long as he describes if only I was able to last at least 2-3 months. Just judging from my partial reboots in the past. Also, I started abusing PMO only after I was 18, so maybe I have some benefit there. But my psychological addiction is really bad right now.
Orbiter: You are right, I am hardly back on square zero, even if the PIED progress went all away (which I can't tell for sure it did). I understand you being puzzled by 4 hour edging I got myself into. Well, it wasn't 4 uninterrupted hours, I had breaks - during which I was still too aroused for not to return to it. And I work from home office now due to coronavirus - which made things way more challenging and it was low workload day.
Still, considering the coronavirus throwing a curve ball on my progress this February, I think I did decent so far. Looking back at my phone app, that I am using daily to track my progress since February, the number of days I relapsed is as follows:
February: 8 relapses
March: 8 relapses
April: 5 relapses
May: so far 2 relapses (and I have every intention to keep it at 2!)