KittyHawk said:
I relapsed this morning.
It is becoming very hard to admit it here in the forum.
I have a feeling that after so much time and posting, I should show some progress. Like in school or something.
Anyway, it is day 0 for me.
Hey KittyHawk,
You have nothing to prove to us and there are no boundary conditions for you to meet to be a part of this forum.
You, my friend, are a porn addict, and according to the oxford dictionary, addiction means the following;
an inability to stop doing or using something, especially something harmful
That is what an addiction is, the inability. If you were capable of stopping like that, it wouldn't be an addiction.
Let me say this to you once again; you have nothing to prove to us nor do you have to apologize or anything like that.
I assume that you are not doing this for us, but for yourself. Just remember that we are here to support each other. No matter how much you fall down, we will be there for you.
We also know how hard it is to stop. We all have fallen down many times. So we don't care if you fall 1, 10 or 100 times.. We understand.
And you say there is no progress; but i think there is. You have gained insight, you help us out by commenting and providing support, you know what's happening to you.
Progress in beating an addiction should not be measured purely by how much you relapse or how much time there is between relapses. Progress is made in your mind. The understanding of your suffering, the emotions that are tied to your addiction, mapping your triggers and traps. And you are doing that as we speak. In fact a relapse is a great opportunity to learn.
So, you get back on that horse again and keep your chin up because you have nothing to be ashamed off.
Just try to forgive yourself and accept that you are human. Being human means that you will 'fail' your own made up goals. And that is perfectly ok!
Im rooting for you man!