EarthWalker
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Can you put a links to the 3 arrows, 6PP and Psych Ops thread?
Thank you imsory, shade, orbiter and others for your contributions.
Thank you imsory, shade, orbiter and others for your contributions.
Today something came up in my mind.
I asked myself, what is the addiction replacing in me?
What could it be that i want to turn in to or that i want that i'm not able to become or get.
PMO gave me that excitement of sth great, deep pleasure, uncompareable which then washed away any other concerns or other troubles, for some minutes. Since i stopped i never got exactly in that moment of a relapse opportunity to really hear into my soul.
Maybe it's sth i do still have even though i've become a better person now. Meaning, if i would discover PMO nowadays, i wouldn't become addictive?! Just a thought i guess.
Most likely not, because i'm sorting out and sorted out the trash in the relationship to my parents, i have a GF that loves me, i have power over myself and my well-being.Maybe it's sth i do still have even though i've become a better person now. Meaning, if i would discover PMO nowadays, i wouldn't become addictive?! Just a thought i guess.
EarthWalker said:I can relate a lot. Heavy stuff. I think a lot of us have some sort of PTSD from our childhood. I think stuff like divorce, moving around, not having stability, being left alone in the room. "I don't want to feel bad, i want to be loved." Hits right in the feels man. This is traumatic stuff.
I think we have no other choice but to really level up or psych game and understanding of the world to grandmaster level.
All the best
EW
A divorce is normal, mothers and fathers not able to deal with the emotions of their children is normal, children not feeling enough love is normal.
imsorrynotsorry said:For me personally i think MO is too similar to PMO in terms of what is happening in my brain. After MO i have a chaser effect. In the past i MO'd and did it the next 2 days again.
It's like you described it, maybe it's too corrupted and tainted and we have to stay away from it for a loooong time and find a completely new approach to it. For me, i would like to not MO for years, but i don't think that's going to work. We'll see and thanks for your valueable comment.