Doctor Who
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Have you told your wife that you're attempting to reboot?
Apologies if I've missed it in your posts.
Apologies if I've missed it in your posts.
Sanders said:Day 31
Hey Doctor Who, she knows about it all. Together we've installed blockers on my devices and she knows the process, she knows the forums and also read YBOP & Fight the new drug. Whether she believes in it is another question. She found it out herself and I didn't tell her I wanted to quit. I don't know if I would've quit if she'd never found out.
Anyways, a bit more quiet days. Did some cleaning and organising around the house together which was nice. Grilled some food later and ate on the terrace, summer is here! Feeling pretty low on energy these days, took a few emotional hits and haven't really been able to excersice outside. Today will be the day to go out and enjoy nature, it's nice to be outside and appreciate the beauty there is in this world. Planning to go out cycling for a while and take a doggie walk. I also need to pick up something from a hardware store, it's good to stay busy!
Still no urges for porn, this is really strange to me. I couldn't go a week without before, even when I tried to quit on my own. Now, it feels like there's no addiction or anything at all, it's just gone. I know I shouldn't be underestimating this, I've been doing it for 13 years so it's bound to be stuck in my head. Not that I'm complaining, just an observation that doesn't really make sense.
Alright, 31 days done. Trying to get better!
Sanders said:Day 38
Skipped a day of journalling because of a good reason. Wife and I reconnected in many ways and we're giving it all we can to try and make it work again After 5 weeks of living seperately in the same house we're honestly back together. We're smiling, happy and willing to move forward. It's a really great feeling and gives a lot of hope. We've talked a lot in positive ways and ready to get a better life. I still need to get some of the shit in my head in order but I'm hopeful all will turn out well. We also shared the news with some family and that felt good, support is always nice to have.
Another good thing, after such a long time of mediocre sex because of me, we've finally had honestly great sex half the day yesterday. Tried to do everything better this time and she said it was the best sex I'd ever given her. Confidence +1000%! Porn sucks, it took away so much enjoyment from us both. Good to realise how much better life is without porn!
Happy times, 38 days and life is better.