Day 49
Day 49 means that I've been writing here for a month. A time of a lot of ups and downs but currently still everything is going pretty well! Spending time with my wife is great, we're doing more and more things together and that's a really nice development. Life is getting easier each day even though the history still looms over it somehow. I'm happy to have avoided any relapses, and it's just a sign of determination and self-development that it's been such a steady progress these days. The longer without porn the easier it should get right? Today is a pretty busy day, driving some family around to places and visiting others. It's nice to drive around in this great summer. Beautiful landscapes, sunny weather, good times.
@ShadeTrenicin, thank you for your encouraging words. The lying is a large part of our shared addiction and it creates only more problems. Sometimes it feels as if the lying was worse than the porn habit itself, I tried to do everything to show myself as a person who'd never be like that. Luckily now it's easy. I'm no longer afraid if my phone is somewhere around my wife, I'm no longer afraid for questions about me or my history. I've told all, a really big relieve!
@Doctor Who, I've had a lot of alone time the past weeks but ever since things have been going better in our relationship we've been a lot closer. I understand the value of alone time and I should make more effort to maintain that. Thanks for the mention It's been a journey indeed, as strange as it's been. A couple of days before my wife found out we had a really nice event with her family. It seems an eternity ago that we did that, almost a different life.
Tomorrow is day 50 Things keep looking up!
Day 49 means that I've been writing here for a month. A time of a lot of ups and downs but currently still everything is going pretty well! Spending time with my wife is great, we're doing more and more things together and that's a really nice development. Life is getting easier each day even though the history still looms over it somehow. I'm happy to have avoided any relapses, and it's just a sign of determination and self-development that it's been such a steady progress these days. The longer without porn the easier it should get right? Today is a pretty busy day, driving some family around to places and visiting others. It's nice to drive around in this great summer. Beautiful landscapes, sunny weather, good times.
@ShadeTrenicin, thank you for your encouraging words. The lying is a large part of our shared addiction and it creates only more problems. Sometimes it feels as if the lying was worse than the porn habit itself, I tried to do everything to show myself as a person who'd never be like that. Luckily now it's easy. I'm no longer afraid if my phone is somewhere around my wife, I'm no longer afraid for questions about me or my history. I've told all, a really big relieve!
@Doctor Who, I've had a lot of alone time the past weeks but ever since things have been going better in our relationship we've been a lot closer. I understand the value of alone time and I should make more effort to maintain that. Thanks for the mention It's been a journey indeed, as strange as it's been. A couple of days before my wife found out we had a really nice event with her family. It seems an eternity ago that we did that, almost a different life.
Tomorrow is day 50 Things keep looking up!