Update (11/02/20)
Before you read this whole thread or even this opening post, I want to clarify that my views of reboot and the whole idea of NoFap/NoPMO/SR have changed drastically as I've progressed through this journey. I've learned since that is this not just about fixing sexual machinations and sexual dysfunctions for me. It's also about fixing other aspects of my life too that I've ignored through PMO.
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[posted on 10/08/20]
I'm mainly doing this to cure PIED. Plain and simple.
I don't really have any other serious problems in my life. I generally live a healthy lifestyle. I exercise and watch my diet as much as I can and I don't have a lot of social anxiety. The only thing I would say I struggle with is which career path to take but I am slowly figuring that out.
Now onto the problem: I am 22 years old and have been PMOing for about 12 years now. As far as I know, I didn't miss a day except during family vacations and outing with friends and maybe some other days where I just was tired to do it but for the most part, I knew I PMOed a lot.
As a result, I've never really had any desire to date probably because of a combination of various reasons: low sex drive due to PMOing everyday and not being the best looking physically due to really bad acne. Thankfully, as I graduated uni the severe acne problems came to an end. I started looking better and slowly started having confidence with my looks. I also started exercising and working out. Thank God, the ugly duckling phase was over. ;D
With all that, I started dating. Just a reminder, I was still a virgin at this point. The only experience I have was porn if you can even count that as experience. ;D
The first time was alright. I was rock hard probably because of these three things: I was tipsy, it was my first time, and we had the "thrill" and unexpected factor in a way that we were with two other people in the same room. We were all in a friends' outing. However, that also meant there was no penetration that happened. Still, the hj and bj were the best.
That experience really had me horny for the next few days and had me craving for more. Since I couldn't have any, I started to PMO excessively as a result. After a week, I found someone who wanted to give me a head. No penetration? I still went anyway. It's still free head and I'm gonna have my shot at penetration soon enough anyway. I still PMOed because I thought it was okay but when came the time, I wasn't as hard like my first time. I was very horny but my thing wasn't. Managed to stay 70% hard and managed to O but I had to do it myself. Regardless, I just thought maybe I didn't like this person and we were sexually compatible.
The third time was when I had a shot at penetration. I was very excited to finally experience it. I was expecting I would PE but during the bj part, I couldn't even be at 100% erection. I was around 60%. This person told me they wanted to get penetrated now and so I did but as I was putting the condom on, I was starting to lose erection and when I was trying to put in, I lose it all the way. It was so embarrassing. We both agreed that it was probably just nerves and performance anxiety since it was also my first time penetrating. But I wasn't really convinced since I wasn't at all nervous. When we met, of course I was but as we did foreplay and bj, I was fine. I only really started getting stressed when I couldn't get it up. Just why?
This led to a few more instances like these. It was so embarrassing! I knew that if I couldn't get fully hard during the bj part, I know 100% I wont penetrate. That turned being true most of the time. I would always being semi-hard during the whole thing but that was about it. I would manage to O but only if I did it myself.
That was when I really started looking things up as to why this was happening. I already knew what NoFap and No Nut Novemeber were two years prior but I had very limited understanding of it. I thought it was simply literally not fapping and that you can still watch porn and you could nut after the month. I attempted it and failed on the fifth day. At that time, I thought people were crazy when they were saying that you should not be PMOing to begin with. Boy, I wish I had look at it more and listen to what they had to say.
I did however fell for the sUpeRpoWeR benefits that people have been endorsing. I tried not fapping (but still watching porn) on and off to see if it was true but figured that it was really mainly bull hahaha. I wished I paid more attention to the science behind it and how porn affects our brains more.
Going back to the story, I was looking up for answers about why I couldn't get fully hard when I encountered PIED and finally knew what it was. I had been hearing of that term even before but as I said, I didn't really look into NoFap that seriously except for the sUperPowEr benefits. Once I figured out what PIED meant, I already knew that that was my problem: Porn-Induced Erectile Dysfunction. This happened this year last month.
I managed to do 6 days a hardmode/noPMO for the last week of September and relapsed after.
Now, I'm on my second streak with 8 days of noPMO.
Day 8
10/08/20
-I would occasionally have morning woods here and there but after peeing, it would be gone. It's crazy to think that I never really had consistent morning woods ever since maybe first year uni! It's not fully hard but it's a good start.
-Earlier when I had a shower, I decided to do some manscaping since my forest was too bushy for my liking. I was careful not to touch it too much and just let the razor do its thing and to do it as fast as I could but wow, even the slightest movements made it almost semi-hard with no porn at all or imagination of any kind. I was just shaving for Pete's sake! Thankfully, I got it done right away and let the cold water do its job.
I know that a lot of people would say to not count the days and just focus on other things but I already am focusing on other things. I already exercise and draw as a hobby. My biggest concern really is just getting rid of this PIED haha
But if there are other benefits I picked up along the way, I would gladly let you know.
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tldr; Discovered I had PIED when I couldn't get hard to penetrate but would always get fully hard to porn. Decided to quit.
Before you read this whole thread or even this opening post, I want to clarify that my views of reboot and the whole idea of NoFap/NoPMO/SR have changed drastically as I've progressed through this journey. I've learned since that is this not just about fixing sexual machinations and sexual dysfunctions for me. It's also about fixing other aspects of my life too that I've ignored through PMO.
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[posted on 10/08/20]
I'm mainly doing this to cure PIED. Plain and simple.
I don't really have any other serious problems in my life. I generally live a healthy lifestyle. I exercise and watch my diet as much as I can and I don't have a lot of social anxiety. The only thing I would say I struggle with is which career path to take but I am slowly figuring that out.
Now onto the problem: I am 22 years old and have been PMOing for about 12 years now. As far as I know, I didn't miss a day except during family vacations and outing with friends and maybe some other days where I just was tired to do it but for the most part, I knew I PMOed a lot.
As a result, I've never really had any desire to date probably because of a combination of various reasons: low sex drive due to PMOing everyday and not being the best looking physically due to really bad acne. Thankfully, as I graduated uni the severe acne problems came to an end. I started looking better and slowly started having confidence with my looks. I also started exercising and working out. Thank God, the ugly duckling phase was over. ;D
With all that, I started dating. Just a reminder, I was still a virgin at this point. The only experience I have was porn if you can even count that as experience. ;D
The first time was alright. I was rock hard probably because of these three things: I was tipsy, it was my first time, and we had the "thrill" and unexpected factor in a way that we were with two other people in the same room. We were all in a friends' outing. However, that also meant there was no penetration that happened. Still, the hj and bj were the best.
That experience really had me horny for the next few days and had me craving for more. Since I couldn't have any, I started to PMO excessively as a result. After a week, I found someone who wanted to give me a head. No penetration? I still went anyway. It's still free head and I'm gonna have my shot at penetration soon enough anyway. I still PMOed because I thought it was okay but when came the time, I wasn't as hard like my first time. I was very horny but my thing wasn't. Managed to stay 70% hard and managed to O but I had to do it myself. Regardless, I just thought maybe I didn't like this person and we were sexually compatible.
The third time was when I had a shot at penetration. I was very excited to finally experience it. I was expecting I would PE but during the bj part, I couldn't even be at 100% erection. I was around 60%. This person told me they wanted to get penetrated now and so I did but as I was putting the condom on, I was starting to lose erection and when I was trying to put in, I lose it all the way. It was so embarrassing. We both agreed that it was probably just nerves and performance anxiety since it was also my first time penetrating. But I wasn't really convinced since I wasn't at all nervous. When we met, of course I was but as we did foreplay and bj, I was fine. I only really started getting stressed when I couldn't get it up. Just why?
This led to a few more instances like these. It was so embarrassing! I knew that if I couldn't get fully hard during the bj part, I know 100% I wont penetrate. That turned being true most of the time. I would always being semi-hard during the whole thing but that was about it. I would manage to O but only if I did it myself.
That was when I really started looking things up as to why this was happening. I already knew what NoFap and No Nut Novemeber were two years prior but I had very limited understanding of it. I thought it was simply literally not fapping and that you can still watch porn and you could nut after the month. I attempted it and failed on the fifth day. At that time, I thought people were crazy when they were saying that you should not be PMOing to begin with. Boy, I wish I had look at it more and listen to what they had to say.
I did however fell for the sUpeRpoWeR benefits that people have been endorsing. I tried not fapping (but still watching porn) on and off to see if it was true but figured that it was really mainly bull hahaha. I wished I paid more attention to the science behind it and how porn affects our brains more.
Going back to the story, I was looking up for answers about why I couldn't get fully hard when I encountered PIED and finally knew what it was. I had been hearing of that term even before but as I said, I didn't really look into NoFap that seriously except for the sUperPowEr benefits. Once I figured out what PIED meant, I already knew that that was my problem: Porn-Induced Erectile Dysfunction. This happened this year last month.
I managed to do 6 days a hardmode/noPMO for the last week of September and relapsed after.
Now, I'm on my second streak with 8 days of noPMO.
Day 8
10/08/20
-I would occasionally have morning woods here and there but after peeing, it would be gone. It's crazy to think that I never really had consistent morning woods ever since maybe first year uni! It's not fully hard but it's a good start.
-Earlier when I had a shower, I decided to do some manscaping since my forest was too bushy for my liking. I was careful not to touch it too much and just let the razor do its thing and to do it as fast as I could but wow, even the slightest movements made it almost semi-hard with no porn at all or imagination of any kind. I was just shaving for Pete's sake! Thankfully, I got it done right away and let the cold water do its job.
I know that a lot of people would say to not count the days and just focus on other things but I already am focusing on other things. I already exercise and draw as a hobby. My biggest concern really is just getting rid of this PIED haha
But if there are other benefits I picked up along the way, I would gladly let you know.
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tldr; Discovered I had PIED when I couldn't get hard to penetrate but would always get fully hard to porn. Decided to quit.