guitar1968
Well-Known Member
Yep. I think I got this. I'm not feeling the need to stray. Looking forward to hitting the goal and then probably setting another goal. Not sure what that is at this point, but I do like having a goal to work on. Not using porn is not really a goal anymore. I'm not using it. When I hit 90 days of hard mode I'll be over 6 months porn free. I may do another 30 days of hard mode. Not sure. I may try to rekindle things with my wife and see where that leads. It may make things worse, but I'm ready to take responsibility for all of the issues with our sex life. I don't think I'll go into my deep addiction, but I will let her know I'm no longer using or masturbating. As I've stated many times on here, I never hid the fact that I used porn from my wife. I just never told her the frequency of my use or that I had become addicted, but I do want her to know that I'm not using and that I've learned just how destructive it can be and how it most likely played a big role in my issues in the bedroom with her. I want her to know that those problems had nothing to do with her and that I shouldn't have made her feel like she wasn't enough for me. I thought I was supposed to have a partner who did what porn stars do. I know that is not what a true loving relationship should be.Good job, Guitar! You're only 30 days away from your goal, and are 2/3'rds there!
But, let me get to my 6 months of no porn and my 90 days of hard mode first. My head is clearing from all this nonsense and I'm happy where I'm at and where I'm heading.
Have a great day my friends. Stay strong.