Thanks for the encouragement squidward. This illness is sucking happiness out of my life. Im living in a constant fear and stress. The main thing what i occasionally think is maybe i will be like this forever. Im really hard fighting to it but i dont want to lose thid battle and lose my gf. Im trying my best. I know everyone says everyone recoverd but what if it doesnt for me?Hey puggler!
Hold on! I'm so sorry to hear how you are feeling. Just looking over your journal, I can see you have had successful moments and that you are healing. Like everyone on here says. It just takes time.
If you're like me, we have spent A LOT of time building this habit.
My friend told me, imagine having that path in your yard, you've waled it for years. It's now hard ground. One day you decide to take a new route. How long does it take to have the grass regrow and cover up that old path? A long time. But it's worth it. I have to believe its worth it.
We are here for you.