Day 2 (1984 days of freedom)
Day 28 of no O
Day 28 of no alcohol
62 cold showers
Thank you
@Ezel, you're absolutely right about that. What's done is done.
Love you king
Thanks for this
@Galatians51. You're right, the brain can really play tricks with us when it comes to this stuff. I know this has been a huge factor in my life when it comes to this habit. Obviously I don't "blame" them for it, I'm responsible for my own actions, however, it would be a lie acting like it didn't happen many times thinking of all this trauma from my childhood etc., just the anger alone can get you sometimes.
Thanks man, yes you're right about this. I find so much of this is just a mental battle of values. I told myself Porn is not Option for years now, but after that one drunken screw up a month ago, suddenly I reintroduced it back into my life and that "variety" starts calling my name again, whereas before I didn't even let it get to point, it was simply not an option anymore. The whole motto, porn is not option, is to say, no matter how much something might be enticing or whatnot, you've alreadly established it won't be good for you and that it will have bad consequences in the end. For example, you might think your cousin is really hot, but you simply don't go there for obviously reasons! That's what the motto implies, you just don't do it, period! Porn is just not an outlet for your sexuality anymore. I forgot about that these last few weeks, and now I'm starting to remember again. At the end of the day, porn is a battle of values, it's as simple as that. And as Jesus said,
a house divided will NOT stand. If our minds are divided on this issue, then we've already relapsed before we've even clicked the button.
Thanks for your support brother. It means so much.
Thanks
@swimmer97, I appreciate you. And you're right, people are people, and forgiving them is all I can do in the end. It might not be what I wanted, but it makes the best out of the situation.
Keep killing it man.
Thanks mate. It is what it is, and who knows, maybe something good will come out of this, I still remain hopeful. And yes, I definitely know my triggers, which is always a bonus in all of this.
Best sir.
Thanks
@strongfuture89. You're right, what I have with my Lady is truly amazing, and I realize that daily, especially in moments like this. Many women are not cool with this shit, and seeing that she can be understanding and comprehend that this is an addiction is extremely helpful in overcoming it. Learning how to talk to her about this has been a interesting experience, just being truthful in the moment and not hiding behind cowardice etc. has been empowering.
Best brother.
Thanks
@EarthWalker.
Boy is that the truth. That's what I was aiming for with all of this, so maybe my relapse came from such a great disappointment etc. However, ever since the beginning I've told myself that this could very well be the case, and I wasn't doing this with any assureity that they would see the light, it was always for me to be truthful to myself and put my truth "out there" in the void and see what happens.
Wise words indeed. No we do not!
Bless you man.