To always start again

[viking1234]

Feel really bummed.
I try, I try, I try but this thing seems bigger than me... (slipped again moments ago).
Phone is tucked away but that is not a problem in the end.
Re-reading easypeasy helps, and at times it feels like the monster is slowly dying. But then the moment arrives when I know for a fact it's going to make me feel unhappy but I still go ahead and do it. Started meditating every day this week.

Hope for better days!
VIking

 

[Androg]

Some people need daily support at the beginning. Do you want some links?

 

[viking1234]

Some people need daily support at the beginning. Do you want some links?

Sure. I could use everything you have!

 

[Androg]

Both of these have been recommended on this forum. Again, you don't need to stay with them permanently. You just need to reach cruising altitude.

http://spaa-recovery.org/

www.pornaddictsanonymous.org.

 

[viking1234]

Hi.
Long time no see...
Was about 10 days until today. Started doing SPAA meetings, once a week at least, more if I can.
Feeling a bit better about everything, but man, this is harder than I thought. Today I knew 100% that I didn't want to go to my addiction but I still did. I now know I cannot do this on my own. Hope to reach cruising altitude soon
Best
Viking

 

[Androg]

Hi.
Long time no see...
Was about 10 days until today. Started doing SPAA meetings, once a week at least, more if I can.
Feeling a bit better about everything, but man, this is harder than I thought. Today I knew 100% that I didn't want to go to my addiction but I still did. I now know I cannot do this on my own. Hope to reach cruising altitude soon
Best
Viking

Glad you are finding the meetings worthwhile. Hope you see progress soon.

 

[viking1234]

No good news today - slipped again after 4 days. Feeling pretty down. Trying to completely accept my addict condition, to ask my higher power for help, but man it's difficult...
Hoping for a change
Viking

 

[Androg]

No good news today - slipped again after 4 days. Feeling pretty down. Trying to completely accept my addict condition, to ask my higher power for help, but man it's difficult...
Hoping for a change
Viking

You may need more structured support at first.

 

[viking1234]

You may need more structured support at first.

What do you mean by structured support?

I slipped again today after 7 days. Was very busy with work travel through the weekend and then today I felt a bit sick and super stressed... that didn't help at all.

 

[Androg]

What do you mean by structured support?

I slipped again today after 7 days. Was very busy with work travel through the weekend and then today I felt a bit sick and super stressed... that didn't help at all.

Some kind of structured addiction program, such as a 12 step program or other similar concept. Daily check-ins and a sponsor can sometimes help you get traction.