The bad news is that I ended up slipping again today. The slightly better news is that up until that point, I had a much better day than yesterday, and the slip was a much more momentary thing than the day before. But it was still a moment of weakness that I fell pray to.
Clearly it's not great and I'm bummed that I couldn't manage to hold true to my commitment above. I'm still paying the price of Sunday's much more damaging slip which has really derailed my start to the week. It was always going to be busy, but by basically putting everything off to escape into P, I've made today and tomorrow really quite awful.
It's a reminder that there is always a price and that the demon I need to battle just as hard as P is the inclination to face away from what needs to be done. As a consequence, I've been sorting stuff all evening and will need to get up at 5.30 tomorrow (a little over 6 hours) to try and finish things off before work. And then work is going to be really full on. But it's my own fault and I'll just have to deal with it and get through it.
All in all, I'm holding in that despite everything above, today was better than yesterday and I will work hard to make sure tomorrow is better than today. I'm also on here posting and reading, which is something else to hold onto and to help keep me grounded. And I'm grateful for that. Really grateful. Tomorrow we go again...