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@Gracie - useful perspective. My wife is not a true tactile person, or not by nature. That said she loves hand holding. But I think the fact remains she’s not into it. I obviously am. I do really appreciate your words. You’re not slapping me in the face,you’re just saying this is a difficult area period. I needed the woman’s vie.
@Sammyjo - thanks for your amazing support. Joint therapy is a no at the moment. It was discussed but I got a “not yet”, also my therapist said she reckons it’s way too early. My wife says she has a knot inside her and it tightens when she thinks of me touching her. She has said unequivocally that it is not about attraction…she says I am very handsome and attractive….but she just can’t unpick the threads in the knot. Book reading together proved good initially then it came too hard for her. We got halfway through Love you, hate the porn before she couldn’t bear the pain of the daily reminder….then it was every other day…then I realised I was stabbing her effectively so I stopped it. Hold me Tight has been recommended before but we haven’t bought it yet. Maybe that wouldn’t hurt so much.
I think I use RN too much to vent my frustration. Up to a point that’s what it’s for I guess, but that isn’t quintessentially my style in life. I am very even handed. My wife is suffering- that’s plain to see. The fact that she just can’t get there yet is just part of who she is. The fact that that demands patience from me is just that…..a fact. You lot pat me on the back and hold me up as a hero….and I thank you all for that, because it really helps….but the -lain fact is I just need to be a good, patient man. Nothing above what an ordinary man should be able to do. Thanks so much guys.
@Blondie - love you, man. Wish I could share a beer. You even bothered to write when you admitted you had no real advice. Off the charts friendship….stellar.
Meanwhile with my renewed vigour, we have…..
224 days no PMO
72 days no ejaculation - don’t want to sound like a seedy old man, but morning glory today was unbelievable. Impressive. Not showing off just a journal note that it’s possibly never been like that before. I know it’s resting blood flow rather than sexual prowess, but we have potential here. Had to force it downwards to pee…..what emoji shall I go for…..errr…how about