Getting my life back

akpal2

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good stuff, the no life down there days are certainly better than when there is a lot of life down there IMO.

Hang in there freddy, you are at day 63. That is awesome.
 

ShadeTrenicin

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Indeed, day 63 is an amazing accomplishment. Life will return to the nether regions. You know that as well as we all do. It's just a matter of Time. It can be day 64 or 80...But it will return.


 

Georgos

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Freddy, I am always willing to learn, does life go in cycles or is it a spiral, is this a meaningless question, my main concern is differentiating between ancestors and jinn, and further between the jinn themselves, how do you make a recording; I've tried, but all I can pick up is some nonce heavy breathing over my wind instrument playing :(
 

Freddy

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Day 65, still in a bad mood/mode. Hopefully this phase will be over soon. Need to try to focus on sports during the weekend
 

Georgos

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Hi Freddy, sorry to hear your back on the mic, hope you're saying something intelligent, it's the first time I've heard you to be honest, though I know you make a killing, does all the money come from sports fixtures, or is there money in information as well, you still haven't answered my question about Orishas, jinn and ancestors, and confusing the three. Some people say the Orishas were Kings, other's that they were descended from Titan, the moon of Jupiter, and thus Prophets, or Messengers of Orunmilla, jinn are something altogether different. Do you believe in the Gaia hypothesis, I don't know what her name is in Ifa, perhaps she falls under an Odu, let me know if any of this makes sense, I believe you're communicating with Shaytan, Saturn to use the correct English pronounciation, he is the enemy of all mankind, you have to be very careful your not profiting from war, that is my main concern, charging interest is as you know haram, so really you shouldn't talk at all, just MC, your opinion on whether I am making sense is appreciated, I have definitely been relapsing recently and am just venting smoke and mirrors like Sheikh Al-Akbar in your direction, I don't mind if you think I'm mad, I'm used to it x
 

Freddy

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Georgos said:
Hi Freddy, sorry to hear your back on the mic, hope you're saying something intelligent, it's the first time I've heard you to be honest, though I know you make a killing, does all the money come from sports fixtures, or is there money in information as well, you still haven't answered my question about Orishas, jinn and ancestors, and confusing the three. Some people say the Orishas were Kings, other's that they were descended from Titan, the moon of Jupiter, and thus Prophets, or Messengers of Orunmilla, jinn are something altogether different. Do you believe in the Gaia hypothesis, I don't know what her name is in Ifa, perhaps she falls under an Odu, let me know if any of this makes sense, I believe you're communicating with Shaytan, Saturn to use the correct English pronounciation, he is the enemy of all mankind, you have to be very careful your not profiting from war, that is my main concern, charging interest is as you know haram, so really you shouldn't talk at all, just MC, your opinion on whether I am making sense is appreciated, I have definitely been relapsing recently and am just venting smoke and mirrors like Sheikh Al-Akbar in your direction, I don't mind if you think I'm mad, I'm used to it x

I fully agree
 

Freddy

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Day 70, have had some slight relapsing tendencies again, peeking at porn and getting hard from it but still stopping quite quickly. No PMO or binge in 70 days is however quite the achievement for me and things are gradually going in the better direction with less and less usage.
 

Freddy

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Day 73, realizing that I am having sexual fantasies disturbing my rebooting. Any ideas on how to stop fantasizing?
 

Freddy

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Day 76 without Oing to Porn. My edging and peeking is however getting worse impacting my capacity to have an erection.

Setting counter to zero to try to get back on track. Almost 80 days without binge and full PMO is however still good progress. Time for the final step.
 

Freddy

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Day 5 hard mode. Developed some new routines to avoid further exposure to situations where I get tempted.
 

Freddy

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Day 6, sleeping better since I moved all electronic devices to another room than my bedroom and started reading books prior to going a sleep.
 

ShadeTrenicin

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Freddy said:
Day 6, sleeping better since I moved all electronic devices to another room than my bedroom and started reading books prior to going a sleep.

Excellent choice! This is a major improvement for the sleep routine. It will probably take a while before you are adjusted to it, but eventually it will help you sleep better. That in its turn will help you to better battle your addiction.

Keep going strong
 
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