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GBS

GBS

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Galatians51 said:
I’m still not sure if I feel any different from this, aside from feeling better about myself. What about you?
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I think it’s totally manageable if one keeps distractions at a minimum. Problem (for me) is that you can’t actually control distractions and just sometimes the distractions awake something in my fucked up brain. The brain says “we want dopamine, we want dopamine. Why won’t you give us some, Daddy?” And I say fuck off and the kids go back to bed crying.

I don’t feel very different but my changes are small these days. I reckon you’ll get something soon. And hang on….you’re still having sex so you’re not doing this complete monk mode, right?
 
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Galatians51

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day 133 no pmo - 19 weeks
No 31 no mo
GBS said:
I think it’s totally manageable if one keeps distractions at a minimum. Problem (for me) is that you can’t actually control distractions and just sometimes the distractions awake something in my fucked up brain. The brain says “we want dopamine, we want dopamine. Why won’t you give us some, Daddy?” And I say fuck off and the kids go back to bed crying.

I don’t feel very different but my changes are small these days. I reckon you’ll get something soon. And hang on….you’re still having sex so you’re not doing this complete monk mode, right?
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I understand, sometimes I wonder what the human brain did for dopamine a couple hundred years ago, simpler times. There’s like a dopamine buffet around every corner now and you have to keep walking by saying “no” to them all, when you really just want to say yes. Porn, food, drugs, etc. it’s all so easily available.

Yeah i assume there are things happening in me that I just haven’t noticed from all this.

I am still having sex with my wife, but we’ve had a ton going on this month with work, our relationship, our kids, traveling, etc. so we haven’t been very intimate.
 
Galatians51

Galatians51

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Day 135 no pmo
Day 33 no mo

Been a very busy couple days hence the no update yesterday.

GBS said:
I think having sex with your wife and not masturbating (in secret) is the panacea, so good going mate.
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Agreed! I think if we used our sexual energy in the right way we wouldn’t be so messed up from porn… porn just happens to be ready and willing all the time, and no commitment or effort involved, so it seems great at first - like any addiction… and then it ruins your life.
 
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Galatians51

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Day 138 no pmo
Day 1 no mo

I did the same thing with MO that I do with PMO... "I already messed up yesterday, so why not enjoy one more time today... and then quit." Not proud of it, just being honest. At the very least, I'm glad that I didn't fantasize of images or porn thoughts, but I know the more I head down that path - the easier it is for me to start thinking that way which ultimately leads back to PMO world - at least that's what has happened for me.

Anyway, despite the bump in the road on my way to 90 days no MO - I'm not giving up on this.

P.s. Sorry @GBS I feel like I let you down!
 
Ezel

Ezel

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Galatians51 said:
Day 138 no pmo
Day 1 no mo

I did the same thing with MO that I do with PMO... "I already messed up yesterday, so why not enjoy one more time today... and then quit." Not proud of it, just being honest. At the very least, I'm glad that I didn't fantasize of images or porn thoughts, but I know the more I head down that path - the easier it is for me to start thinking that way which ultimately leads back to PMO world - at least that's what has happened for me.

Anyway, despite the bump in the road on my way to 90 days no MO - I'm not giving up on this.

P.s. Sorry @GBS I feel like I let you down!
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Hey man, be careful brother. Like you said after masturbation, porn comes next. The addicted brain knows you better than you know yourself.
All the best champ.
 
Ezel

Ezel

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Galatians51 said:
Day 138 no pmo
Day 1 no mo

I did the same thing with MO that I do with PMO... "I already messed up yesterday, so why not enjoy one more time today... and then quit." Not proud of it, just being honest. At the very least, I'm glad that I didn't fantasize of images or porn thoughts, but I know the more I head down that path - the easier it is for me to start thinking that way which ultimately leads back to PMO world - at least that's what has happened for me.

Anyway, despite the bump in the road on my way to 90 days no MO - I'm not giving up on this.

P.s. Sorry @GBS I feel like I let you down!
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One last thing, I know you are married, why do you have to masturbate and waste your fuel 🤔??!
You know what I mean 😅
 
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Galatians51

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Day 139 no PMO
Day 2 no MO
Ezel said:
Hey man, be careful brother. Like you said after masturbation, porn comes next. The addicted brain knows you better than you know yourself.
All the best champ.
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Agreed, I am putting in 100% effort to not MO anymore.
Ezel said:
One last thing, I know you are married, why do you have to masturbate and waste your fuel 🤔??!
You know what I mean 😅
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Ok so the truth required to answer this question goes a little bit beyond what i'm comfortable sharing on here, but since we're all anonymous I guess it's all good...
First, I definitely don't "have to masturbate"... and I had never masturbated without porn prior to rebooting with the help of reboot nation and ybop, so it's sort of a weird thing to begin with for me.
But the real reason (at least for this time) is because the night before I MO'd my wife and I had sex, but it had been nearly 4 weeks since the last time we had sex... which in my opinion is not healthy in a marriage, but that happened for a variety of factors: schedule/work, kids, being tired from work/kids, some disagreements that we had because of some stressful work situations, and probably some other miscellaneous factors. So since I was doing the no MO challenge, and hadn't had sex for about 4 weeks, the following morning when I woke up I was really wanting to have sex again... but kids, etc... so then I was in the shower not planning on MO or anything but then all the feelings happened and well the rest is history.
I'm not trying to justify my behavior, I think there are many good reasons not to MO and it's not something I want as a part of my life... but that's the story. Yesterday and today I feel really good and haven't had any urges to MO.

thanks for checking in and helping keep me accountable.

GBS said:
Hello @Galatians51 - you didn’t let anyone down. You just had a wank for the first time in a month. Try it again. It’s all work in progress.
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I appreciate this - I will try it again! Here's to a wank free 90 days.
 
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Galatians51

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Day 143 no pmo
Day 6 no mo
Day 1 no tv

I’ve been watching too much tv lately… I struggle with moderation so I’m just going to cut it altogether and see how long I can go (including YouTube/social media videos). My only exception will be when I watch a movie with my family. I know this forum wasn’t created to help us quit tv but since I already track my daily progress here it’s just easier to track everything in one spot… and sometimes watching tv has led me back to porn so for me they can be related.
 
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Galatians51

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Day 144 no pmo
Day 7 no mo
Day 2 no tv

Blondie said:
I get this @Galatians51. It's hard to find a balance with some of this stuff, and it's better just to go all the way sometimes, at least until you moved on from "needing" it.

Best
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I work a lot, so it wasn't like I was watching tv all day, but in the evening instead of spending quality time with my wife, reading, being productive, etc. I (and often my wife) would watch tv and just zone out, so we both agreed to stop watching tv. Last night I read a book, got tired and fell asleep early, which felt fantastic.

All the best to you, thanks for the comment.
 
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