TealCactus
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relapsed yesterday and today. I actually ended up missing a flight yesterday, not directly because of watching porn but it was also a factor, which goes to show how much this tangibly messes up my life. I still worked out today and had a good day mentally, but my wife and I’s relationship has been really bad lately, which is definitely a contributing factor to my relapses. We got married really young, and if you look back in my thread you’ll see we’ve been through a lot over the six years we’ve been together. We’re best friends, but we don’t get along lately. Porn is part of it, my wife is really hurt by it. Her mental health is also just in a bad spot since her family member was shot last year. She’s very anxious, and to be honest I’ve found myself less attracted to her, not physically but emotionally, which I know is normal, but it also just doesn’t feel good. I’m going to get us into couples counseling and talk to my therapist about it, but I think it’s been a bigger factor than I’ve been willing to admit.
I’m going to start an “autobiography” for therapy, so I’ll try to post some of those reflections here over the coming weeks.
stay strong everyone, every second of life is more real the further from porn you get.
relapsed yesterday and today. I actually ended up missing a flight yesterday, not directly because of watching porn but it was also a factor, which goes to show how much this tangibly messes up my life. I still worked out today and had a good day mentally, but my wife and I’s relationship has been really bad lately, which is definitely a contributing factor to my relapses. We got married really young, and if you look back in my thread you’ll see we’ve been through a lot over the six years we’ve been together. We’re best friends, but we don’t get along lately. Porn is part of it, my wife is really hurt by it. Her mental health is also just in a bad spot since her family member was shot last year. She’s very anxious, and to be honest I’ve found myself less attracted to her, not physically but emotionally, which I know is normal, but it also just doesn’t feel good. I’m going to get us into couples counseling and talk to my therapist about it, but I think it’s been a bigger factor than I’ve been willing to admit.
I’m going to start an “autobiography” for therapy, so I’ll try to post some of those reflections here over the coming weeks.
stay strong everyone, every second of life is more real the further from porn you get.