MapleSyrup
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Day 91
For the first time, I have achieved 90 days free of PMO!
The journey is still ongoing. I still fight urges every so often, although they've gotten few and far between. There's also still much room for improvement in my life and healthy habits that I want to implement.
But I've come further than ever before in becoming free of porn addiction, and freeing my brain from the dopamine trap.
I'll summarize a few thoughts below:
Benefits: I originally became interested in NoFap all those years ago after hearing about miraculous benefits like increased energy, mental clarity, extraversion, freedom from social anxiety, and magical attractiveness to the opposite sex. Unfortunately, I can't say that all those things came true, and I think it's almost counterproductive to set so much expectations on benefits.
Ultimately, what allowed me to successfully complete these 90 days was not focusing on benefits, but simply trying to avoid porn, which I am repulsed by and want nothing to do with.
That said, I did notice some gradual changes in my life over the last 3 months. My mental state has been more stable and healthy than it has in years. The days when my anxiety is overpowering are much fewer and far between. In general, my anxiety levels seem way lower. I've also become much more disciplined with how I spend my time. Nowadays, I almost always hit the gym after work when I have time, and even in my down time before bed, I'm much more purposeful with what I browse on the internet. I've also been much more social, arranging more outings and events with my friends, and making more efforts to introduce myself to new people. I still struggle with social anxiety sometimes, but it feels more manageable, and I actually feel like it's something I can continue to challenge and make gradual progress on.
Going forward: Obviously, the goal is to quit PMO forever. Porn is a sneaky, insidious trap made to monetize our brains' reward system and ancient instinctual circuitry. It's the product of unchecked human desire met with other humans' greed. I want nothing to do with it, and refuse to let it control my brain and weigh me down any longer. I'm proud of my 90 days that I've achieved, but it's only the beginning. The next major milestone will be 6 months, and I'll be ecstatic to reach an entire 365 days eventually.
I also feel like rebooting has freed me and empowered me just enough to push myself to grow. I don't have abundant, supernatural confidence. But I now have just enough confidence to push myself to meet more people, expand my comfort zone, becoming more charming, more capable, more wise, and more content. I will gradually continue to improve and push myself, until I accomplish all the goals I originally set out to achieve.
Here's looking forward to the future.
For the first time, I have achieved 90 days free of PMO!
The journey is still ongoing. I still fight urges every so often, although they've gotten few and far between. There's also still much room for improvement in my life and healthy habits that I want to implement.
But I've come further than ever before in becoming free of porn addiction, and freeing my brain from the dopamine trap.
I'll summarize a few thoughts below:
Benefits: I originally became interested in NoFap all those years ago after hearing about miraculous benefits like increased energy, mental clarity, extraversion, freedom from social anxiety, and magical attractiveness to the opposite sex. Unfortunately, I can't say that all those things came true, and I think it's almost counterproductive to set so much expectations on benefits.
Ultimately, what allowed me to successfully complete these 90 days was not focusing on benefits, but simply trying to avoid porn, which I am repulsed by and want nothing to do with.
That said, I did notice some gradual changes in my life over the last 3 months. My mental state has been more stable and healthy than it has in years. The days when my anxiety is overpowering are much fewer and far between. In general, my anxiety levels seem way lower. I've also become much more disciplined with how I spend my time. Nowadays, I almost always hit the gym after work when I have time, and even in my down time before bed, I'm much more purposeful with what I browse on the internet. I've also been much more social, arranging more outings and events with my friends, and making more efforts to introduce myself to new people. I still struggle with social anxiety sometimes, but it feels more manageable, and I actually feel like it's something I can continue to challenge and make gradual progress on.
Going forward: Obviously, the goal is to quit PMO forever. Porn is a sneaky, insidious trap made to monetize our brains' reward system and ancient instinctual circuitry. It's the product of unchecked human desire met with other humans' greed. I want nothing to do with it, and refuse to let it control my brain and weigh me down any longer. I'm proud of my 90 days that I've achieved, but it's only the beginning. The next major milestone will be 6 months, and I'll be ecstatic to reach an entire 365 days eventually.
I also feel like rebooting has freed me and empowered me just enough to push myself to grow. I don't have abundant, supernatural confidence. But I now have just enough confidence to push myself to meet more people, expand my comfort zone, becoming more charming, more capable, more wise, and more content. I will gradually continue to improve and push myself, until I accomplish all the goals I originally set out to achieve.
Here's looking forward to the future.
