MapleSyrup
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Day 36
PMO/Urges
This week was smooth sailing, until a few days ago. I had a random wet dream, even though I don't remember having a sexual dream. It kick started a mini series of urges over the past few days, and I once caught myself starting to fantasize and I wanted to browse risky sites. To resist the urge, I had to go wash dishes, and by the time I was done, the urge had passed. Freaky to realize how finicky my brain is, that intense urges can just come and go, and how it can even mess with my sense of reason.
At any rate, I'm hanging on and weathering the storm. The next few days I've got a lot of outings with friends in the evenings, so things should be smooth for a while.
Life/Benefits
Been feeling pretty down the last week. Research progress in grad school has not been good, and my supervisor mentioned that I might not be able to graduate on time. I also got my hopes up a bit regarding a girl I met a couple months ago, but the conversations would just go dry and the vibes didn't seem to be there.
I found that while my mood was down, I also slipped back into social withdrawal, not wanting to start conversations with people, especially strangers, and I also couldn't work up the courage to go to a couple social outings and missed out on them. Not sure if it's coincidental that these feelings also coincide with my PMO urges acting up.
At any rate, I absolutely refuse to let my urges and poor mood beat me. I've come too far to give up after one bad week, and I know that the urges will pass if I refuse to entertain them.
PMO/Urges
This week was smooth sailing, until a few days ago. I had a random wet dream, even though I don't remember having a sexual dream. It kick started a mini series of urges over the past few days, and I once caught myself starting to fantasize and I wanted to browse risky sites. To resist the urge, I had to go wash dishes, and by the time I was done, the urge had passed. Freaky to realize how finicky my brain is, that intense urges can just come and go, and how it can even mess with my sense of reason.
At any rate, I'm hanging on and weathering the storm. The next few days I've got a lot of outings with friends in the evenings, so things should be smooth for a while.
Life/Benefits
Been feeling pretty down the last week. Research progress in grad school has not been good, and my supervisor mentioned that I might not be able to graduate on time. I also got my hopes up a bit regarding a girl I met a couple months ago, but the conversations would just go dry and the vibes didn't seem to be there.
I found that while my mood was down, I also slipped back into social withdrawal, not wanting to start conversations with people, especially strangers, and I also couldn't work up the courage to go to a couple social outings and missed out on them. Not sure if it's coincidental that these feelings also coincide with my PMO urges acting up.
At any rate, I absolutely refuse to let my urges and poor mood beat me. I've come too far to give up after one bad week, and I know that the urges will pass if I refuse to entertain them.