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Alexey

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Had a relapse today. PM and 2 orgasms.

Before that I experienced another rejection from the woman I like for a long time.
 
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Very sorry the romance didn't work out. Are there any other potential partners around?

Once you slip...take care not to binge. Stay strong!
 
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Alexey

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Had a run ~3k this morning.

@Androg Thank you. I used to be and seems still is hard and slow on switching between (potential) partners.

The bigger picture is possibly that I have no precise answer to the relationship with sex in my life. Actually most of the time I'm just refusing occasional sexual impulses. But how long will I continue to refuse? Like a typical p guy I'm a timid and inept dealing with actual relationships. I'm not young at the same time and everything is good at the appropriate time (not always impossible at another time however). If I want to have a family and children I have to start soon.

Possibly the absence of the answer may lead to conflict and to PMO.

cut screen time – one hour before bed, one hour after bed

14hrs no p videos, no p pics, no gaming

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Alexey

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@Androg
It seems that there is no single answer to digital addiction. It could be solved only in complexity: social connections, digital hygiene/off screen gaps, sport (I began running for ex), hobbies, of course.
Yet first of all social connections -- if not actual, then one should think about close people, damaging your life inevitably damages relations and lives of people who possibly still think and care of you.

Still have uneasy times. No p videos/orgasms for 11 days, however viewed sexual pics about three times.

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Androg

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Some guys say that pushups or the equivalent are helpful when anxiety strikes. You could try them before you view sex pics to see if you can derail the urge.
 

Alexey

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I've been on a Yoga tour for about 9 days. We lived near the sea coast and the physical activity was rather essential for me (two hour sessions a day). Besides that the group consisted mainly of women. Some were rather pretty.

Interestingly I didn't even have urges. Even despite that we touch and hug each other from time to time as a part of practice.
I feel like a mouse from the known experiment with cocaine water, who refuses to drink it when in a healthy environment.

Yet now I'm back and it seems stress and urges eventually return

No PMO for 24 days

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Androg

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You have a good head start. Try to minimize triggers by changing up your routine and staying away from your phone as much as possible for now.
 

Percival

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Yet now I'm back and it seems stress and urges eventually return

I've often found that it's hardest when you return to normal life, since porn is (or was) part of your normal life. Especially when stress (or tiredness, or hunger, or...etc) triggers the feeling. Doing pushups, or anything really, to get yourself out of the temptation moment helps, although I know that's easier said than done.
 

Alexey

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31 day dry

Notably, I didn't have any pollution for all this time. So proper social connections work wonderfully.

Uneasy times at work also don’t bend me this time.
 
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Alexey

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Had a wet dream tonight. Before that I had a quite intense day. Unlikely it was stressful if stress involves negativity however. Besides that I was not careful with nutrition and consumed some alcohol (not so much). And also today I met a young neighbor girl and found her quite attractive sexually and she was nice to me.

Possibly every piece was not so meaningful by itself, but overall it gave an effect.

So I made 36 dry days.

Now I need to stay especially alert and careful for the next 2-3 days.

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Alexey

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Had urges today, also some thoughts of self unworthiness turned out. Possibly the second or the third day after the leak is the most tough one.

42 hours no leak
37 days no PM

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