BrassBalls707
Active Member
Day 11-13
I stayed up a while longer than usual and noticed that my ability to resist PMO is proportional to the time I haven't meditated. I did so around 16:00, and am now noticing an extreme struggle to resist PMO at around 23:30. It is worth adding I had a 1 and a half hour nap at 20:00. I think both time spent since the last mental exercise and sleep lower my ability to act conscientiously. A necessary revelation for sure, since I almost relapsed. Holy moly this is the most difficult thing I've done in my life. I see now why some religions saw some sexual acts as profane, it literally feels like a demonic possession
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This makes sense because most people say that urges are greatest right after they wake up or right before they go to bed. In other words, when the mind is compromised.
I am going to start doing mental exercises first thing in the morning and last thing of the day. I already did the latter, but now I have all the more reason to.
Onwards!
I stayed up a while longer than usual and noticed that my ability to resist PMO is proportional to the time I haven't meditated. I did so around 16:00, and am now noticing an extreme struggle to resist PMO at around 23:30. It is worth adding I had a 1 and a half hour nap at 20:00. I think both time spent since the last mental exercise and sleep lower my ability to act conscientiously. A necessary revelation for sure, since I almost relapsed. Holy moly this is the most difficult thing I've done in my life. I see now why some religions saw some sexual acts as profane, it literally feels like a demonic possession

This makes sense because most people say that urges are greatest right after they wake up or right before they go to bed. In other words, when the mind is compromised.
I am going to start doing mental exercises first thing in the morning and last thing of the day. I already did the latter, but now I have all the more reason to.
Onwards!
