For a life worth living

[TypeN]

You've got this AJ7. Sometimes I think that the heavy emotions you're talking about here in part come from the addiction (disappointment and fear give us a reason to keep using). Not that it's not understandable to feel the way you're feeling.

With a little time and some patience I think you will be right back where you want to be, able to be fully intimate with your wife. Perhaps in the meantime, you can think of getting moving with your sobriety again as a different way to show your love for her.

 

[Androg]

If it motivates you to be more consistent with your recovery, it will, in the long run, be for the best.

 

[AJ7]

Day 3

Thank you gents @Blondie @TypeN @Androg. You helped me remember to focus on the big picture. I will put this PIED moment in my memory bank and reflect on it any time I’m feeling urges.

 

[AJ7]

Day 4

staying busy, not spending too much time on my phone.

 

[AJ7]

Day 5

Will strive to have a productive weekend. Definitely no porn.

 

[AJ7]

Day 6

successful erection last night felt like I redeemed myself from the other night. Been doing kegal exercises for the last week or so and definitely feel like I’ve noticed a difference especially in combination with not wasting my sexual energy on porn for several days. Will remain vigilant and take it one step at a time.

 

[Androg]

See? The "blip" has led you to the "next right step" in recovering your sexual health. Think of it as "divine kung fu," in which you go backward in order to take a leap forward.

And, needless to say, resist tying your joy and self-esteem to what Mr. Happy does on a particular day. That frees your partner to relax too. Sexual performance pressure is bad for both sexes. It leads to faked orgasms and other emotional-distance creating mindsets. Just wallow in a naked snuggling when fireworks don't seem to be on the menu.

 

[AJ7]

Day 7

See? The "blip" has led you to the "next right step" in recovering your sexual health. Think of it as "divine kung fu," in which you go backward in order to take a leap forward.

And, needless to say, resist tying your joy and self-esteem to what Mr. Happy does on a particular day. That frees your partner to relax too. Sexual performance pressure is bad for both sexes. It leads to faked orgasms and other emotional-distance creating mindsets. Just wallow in a naked snuggling when fireworks don't seem to be on the menu.

Thank you @Androg this is reassuring.

I think I needed that ED moment to wake me up a little. And it wasn’t just about the ED but the fact that I was wasting energy on something meaningless that took away my passion for someone who actually loves me.

when flatline hits, and I’m sure it eventually will, I’ll be easy on myself and partake in the naked snuggling sessions

 

[AJ7]

Day 8

 

[AJ7]

Day 9

Heavy workload this week. no urges but I can feel the need for some self care coming up. Luckily I have Thursday off to complete my tattoo and get off my feet a bit.

 

[AJ7]

Day 10

 

[Blondie]

Looking good @AJ7.

 

[Hunter_]

How you doing? @AJ7

 

[AJ7]

Day 1

@Hunter_ thanks for checking up on me man.

I’ve been struggling this last week or so but I think I’m coming out of the rough patch. I’ve been letting work stress get to me and it spilled over into other areas of my life. Several days of just work/eat/sleep and I used pmo as an escape from that. Obviously didn’t help the situation at all but I’ve reached for it as the “lowest hanging fruit” for so many years that it’s going to take consistent work to break that habit.

a positive thing that I did this morning was a gratitude meditation which helped me move in the right mindset. Still plenty of work to do but it feels good to get a post in.

 

[AJ7]

Day 2

relieved to be back to my “normal” state. The feeling of dread and dissatisfaction have gone for now. I have to keep building momentum.

 

[AJ7]

Day 3

solid workout today with focus and pushing through the burn, not just going through the motions. Need workouts like these consistently!

 

[AJ7]

Day 4

Not going to be a slave to porn!

 

[AJ7]

Day 5

Had a flutter of urges today. When my phone connected to the Bluetooth in my truck, the title of the last porn video I watched popped up on my screen. Luckily did not see any of the video but still gave me a little bit of a panic. Despite this I’m staying focused and not going to flirt with the danger zone.

 

[AJ7]

Day 6

thankful for today.

 

[AJ7]

Day 7

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