The Phoenix

[strongfuture89]

Day 49 of no more poison
I had a 50+ days streak in December and another one in June. Time to reach a new record! If we can be optimistic, a record each day from now on!

I have so much more time now that I´m not wasting it to pmo. With this time and energy, I sleep 7-8 hours each night. This is important because sleep deprivation makes people make bad decisions, resulting in a higher possibility of relapse. I also use my time to care for myself: care for skin, hair and beard, sports and working out more, doing my administration,... Things like administration would otherwise be pushed to the future, as I would procrastinate a lot. But at the same time, I get stressed, knowing that I have 'so much administration work´. So, while rebooting you can also fix the things that give you secondary stress. It feels good knowing you have the time and energy now to put your life back in order.

It´s already 7 weeks!

 

[strongfuture89]

Day 50
Doing great! Took a cold shower, doing sports, taking care of myself and I started doing the things I procrastinated in.
I´m feeling way better without p, much more alert yet more relaxed at the same time. I feel awake and in control.

 

[strongfuture89]

Day 51
Hi everyone, checking in every single day is golden for me. I´m working on my little reboot plan/program/bootcamp and it motivates me even more. I´m gathering resources that build a healthy mindset. If you have some very powerful videos (10-20 minutes) about pmo addiction, philosophy or better lifestyle (cold showers, sports,...), you can send them to me or share them here.
No more digital poison! It´s so liberating to live without it!

 

[strongfuture89]

Day 52
I had two hours of sports yesterday evening, a good 8 hours sleep and took a cold shower this morning. Until 11am or so, I was ´high on my own supply´ as Wim Hof would say, enjoying life without needing anything. I´ve been meditating more often, listening to my inner voice without argueing or correcting. Just accepting my mind for how it works, accepting to be happy and enjoy life. I´m alone at home now, which is a trigger. After two hours of being alone, a trigger came up but I quickly went into meditation pose, listened to the urge, tell my brain that porn is poison, I don´t want poison, then I relaxed and the urge is now leaving again. Time to lift some weights!

 

[Blondie]

Keep rocking it Rocky!

 

[strongfuture89]

Thanks, @Blondie It feels good knowing there´s a team to back you up when you´re home alone. My wife is home now, so I survived the evening haha!
We can do this!

 

[strongfuture89]

Day 54 of no more poison
Creating my own guide for no more pmo has helped me to stay focused, because I am getting so much good influence feom the good material and it´s always nice to do something creative and hoping that it might help someone in the future.
I had no urges yesterday and today. Feeling very happy today. Cold showers rule. ❤
Have a nice weekend everyone!

 

[strongfuture89]

Day 56 of beating this addiction
My wife has a fever and I´m trying not to get ill myself, so this morning I didn´t take a cold shower just to give me some energy for beating the virus (which is working as multiple people around me are ill).
With the lack of the mental benefit from a cold shower though, I can feel the need for a bit more urge control / meditation. I should also do some Wim Hof breathing now that I think of it.
Yesterday I was out with friends of my wife. Some talked about their hours on tiktok, how they hate their job, how they feel very insecure about their body, even calling themselves depressed ...and I felt pity for how they just couldn´t see the bigger picture. I tried to explain that their habits were so unhealthy, ...but they probably weren´t ready to change yet. One day they might be, one day I hope they´ll understand what I tried to explain...
Yesterday I also got training from an amazing athlete (one of the best in the country in his sports) and he has this amazing energy, wow! It felt good seeing someone so excited and it felt good feeling that vibe, that healthy energy.

We´re still rocking this, aren´t we?!

56 days, that´s 8 weeks now!

 

[strongfuture89]

Day 57 of no more poison
I´m doing some shadow work or ´inner child´ meditation, just exploring myself some more. Thanks to cold showers, I guess, I´m not getting sick.
Have a great pmo-free day!

 

[strongfuture89]

Okay this may sound weird to most of you, but I did a small relapse on purpose to test out my program that I´ve created. I´m following the program now and adding even more elements and daily tasks to it, based on my amount of cravings and sensations post-relapse. Don´t worry guys, I´m still going to be here and the idea is to only do this once, because I have no intention on damaging my brain for real.
So today I finished day 1 of my course and I´m doing very good, no urges.
(Again, I´m not hoping to create the perfect golden guide that works for everyone but I hope to create something that includes different tactics and may help people that like a daily guide, because I think that would help me, too.)
Have a great day, everyone, I hope you all don´t think I´m crazy haha.

 

[strongfuture89]

Day 2
I had some urges but I was able to calm them down by meditating. Today I was with my wife at home, because I did become sick like the rest of my family. Covid or something similar I guess.

Day 3
As I´m home with my wife, there are no urges as there is no temptation of being alone so it´s relatively easy at the moment.
For me, weekends are a bit double: they are good because my cravings are less because no temptation of being alone, but bad because I don´t do enough meditation and when I am alone on Mondays, it is a bit difficult because I need to go back into reboot mode with more urge control / meditation. It´s something many guys might have... the idea of ´if each day would be a ...-day, reboot would be a walk in the park´. We have to accept there will be ´good´ and ´bad´ days, but we keep our mindset on healing the mind.

 

[strongfuture89]

Day 4
Doing fine, I´m starting to get really good at allowing my cravings to exist without wanting or needing to answer to them. I can feel they are there but I have no interest in doing what they say.
Have a great weekend!

 

[Galatians51]

Okay this may sound weird to most of you, but I did a small relapse on purpose to test out my program that I´ve created. I´m following the program now and adding even more elements and daily tasks to it, based on my amount of cravings and sensations post-relapse. Don´t worry guys, I´m still going to be here and the idea is to only do this once, because I have no intention on damaging my brain for real.
So today I finished day 1 of my course and I´m doing very good, no urges.
(Again, I´m not hoping to create the perfect golden guide that works for everyone but I hope to create something that includes different tactics and may help people that like a daily guide, because I think that would help me, too.)
Have a great day, everyone, I hope you all don´t think I´m crazy haha.

interesting thoughts... obviously you're free to try and do whatever you want, but isn't this somewhat like asking a drug addict to relapse after they have been clean for nearly 60 days? This stuff is all just dopamine addictions and hitting the reset button just makes it harder to move forward (just my opinion, which you didn't ask for so feel free to ignore). What is your program that you are following/creating?

 

[strongfuture89]

@Galatians51
It´s true that it was a crazy thing to do, yet it feels like something I wanted to explore. I´d like to help others by dealing with dopamine cravings, seeing what works and how to give different tools to help others on healing faster. I work in the medical area and did research on rehabilitation for chronic pain, heart disease, muscle disease,... so it is a passion to test things out and help others.
I´m collecting techniques, tools, videos, articles that may all help people with pmo addiction, trying to give an all-round daily guide for those who want that. I´m still adding and deleting things, but I´d love to showcase it for critique once it´s finished. (And it will be free of course, I don´t want anything in return, just happier people.)

 

[strongfuture89]

Still doing okay, just having a serious cold that´s bothering me. I still did a two minutes cold shower because that really helps me mentally. I also did Wim Hof breathing and a morning workout. So I´m feeling good yet sick haha. Hoping I´ll get better soon.
Have a great day everyone!

Update, starting today, I hope to put multiple goals forward to do daily, like a monk/spartan/warrior mode reboot, so let´s count from scratch:
Viking mode day 1
(= no pmo, 20 minutes morning workout, 2 minutes cold shower, 10 minutes Wim Hof, 15 minutes meditation)

 

[strongfuture89]

@Galatians51 and the others following my story, I made a link so you can see what I´m creating as a little program:
No PMO Guide
It will probably need some tweaks but it´s a start. If it could help anyone, that would be great!
(And you may all help if you want to. I´m doing it for the community.)

 

[strongfuture89]

I´m still on no pmo, but exercise and cold shower will have to wait a couple of days as I´m coughing my lungs out. I´m looking forward to start a long streak of those new habits though. I´m also using the android app TickTick which gives you 5 habits to track on your phone for free, very handy.

 

[Galatians51]

Thanks man, I’ll check it out. I hope you feel better soon

 

[Androg]

Sorry to hear you're to ill. Take good care of yourself.

 

[strongfuture89]

Thank you, guys!
On top of that my wife was crying last night because she didn´t feel supported by me in front of my parents. She´s very perfectionistic and really needs that feeling of being accepted for who she is, while my parents are rather closed people so they don´t easily comfort other people´s feelings. And yeah, I´m the middle man, who needs to build a bridge between them. (Some friends and family members have been rude to her in the past, so her fear is grounded, though, and we don´t have contact with them anymore, they´ve been toxic to others as well.) Meditation kept me calm as a rock and this morning we talked about it. I need to give everyone a chill pill...
But porn is not an option! (A warm shower is, though, I needed that haha)