marsturm
Active Member
Guys, I feel a bit lonely today, but enough of the self-pity, here are the results of day 43:
I'm so f*ing happy that I've been staying away from P for awesome 43 43 43 43 43 days, yeeeiii!!! I might feel lonely, and I am super-relieved. P is so sh*tty I can't believe I watched it for hours on end thinking I had FUN along the way, super lol ;D FUN??? Ha ha ha.
I can't be triggered easily anymore, when I see cute guys it's rather like "oh yeah?" than "I need to PMO NOW." Cold showers have been helpful, working out hard as well. I'm also pretty content with not dating, it's almost like "thank you for the respite."
I'm also trying to go to bed before midnight and not use my computer for reading before I go to bed. I'm turning into a saint, lol. My mood swings have balanced out and I feel less anxious when I'm in public, no shame or fear. PMO creates self-loathing and insecurity.
I would like to express my gratitude for all you brave warriors here who are with me on this path. I can feel you, guys, and it brings tears to my eyes. I never knew how much my addiction made me feel useless, dead, and unhappy, all at the same time. I can only see that now that the fog is s l o w l y lifting. 2015 has come to a good start and I intend it to continue in that fashion. I know that I can't control a relapse 100%, and I know I am willing to not act out 150%. That should do it.
Stay strong, dudes, we can do it! Erection info: I'm in on/off mode, sometimes strong erections at night, or MW, sometimes nothing/very weak. Truckin' on...flatline is my friend
I'm so f*ing happy that I've been staying away from P for awesome 43 43 43 43 43 days, yeeeiii!!! I might feel lonely, and I am super-relieved. P is so sh*tty I can't believe I watched it for hours on end thinking I had FUN along the way, super lol ;D FUN??? Ha ha ha.
I can't be triggered easily anymore, when I see cute guys it's rather like "oh yeah?" than "I need to PMO NOW." Cold showers have been helpful, working out hard as well. I'm also pretty content with not dating, it's almost like "thank you for the respite."
I'm also trying to go to bed before midnight and not use my computer for reading before I go to bed. I'm turning into a saint, lol. My mood swings have balanced out and I feel less anxious when I'm in public, no shame or fear. PMO creates self-loathing and insecurity.
I would like to express my gratitude for all you brave warriors here who are with me on this path. I can feel you, guys, and it brings tears to my eyes. I never knew how much my addiction made me feel useless, dead, and unhappy, all at the same time. I can only see that now that the fog is s l o w l y lifting. 2015 has come to a good start and I intend it to continue in that fashion. I know that I can't control a relapse 100%, and I know I am willing to not act out 150%. That should do it.
Stay strong, dudes, we can do it! Erection info: I'm in on/off mode, sometimes strong erections at night, or MW, sometimes nothing/very weak. Truckin' on...flatline is my friend