Checking in again......today I am 30 days completely free of p&m.
I have been attending SAA, and recently committed myself to staying "out of my head" - meaning, I used to keep this running monologue in my head...and always staying right there. It was "safer" for me to just keep it all inside my head....hiding out, basically.
In the past 30 days, I have stopped censoring all my thoughts...and I just say it now. I can't believe how much happier I have been. It's been risky as times, but what I have found is that more often than not, other people have had the same thoughts, and have been relieved to find out that they were not alone. In the process, I also found out that I wasn't alone in what I was thinking.
It's been a way better way for me to live.
For what it's worth, I have been reading Joseph Nicolosi's "Healing of Homosexuality." It's an incredibly good book. I'm so thankful I found it.
until next time.
NGU