Hello to everyone.
I must admit I've been looking for a similiar site for more than 2 weeks or so, and I've to say this is the only one that looks like a good environment.
To begin with, I've to say that I have never had much of a sexual experience (very little, actually), and on top of that, occasions that happened to lead to sex, of course haven't been the most succesful either. But I've never been a serious porn addict - up until now I would watch a regular clip for no longer than 5-8 min. once a month or two.
Yet it is quate clear that addiction I'm talking about doesn't completely rely on time you spend watching porn, but rather the intensity and overall impact of the visuals.
The problem that I have is the one that of lot of us have- I simply can't get fully erected while being with my GF. A week ago I invited her into my apartment, things got quate serious and it could have been a great time for our first sex, yet my ED killed the romance completely. I felt like a loser, needless to say, I freaked out.
As I was getting more and more intimate with my GF, I used to check porn sites, and pictures slightly more often. But then again- only for a couple of minutes, maybe once a week. But that was enough to mess up my mind big time. I suddenly developed a new fetish- anal sex, which occupied my mind so much and brought so many unstability in my mind. Needless to say this is fuckin insane.
It got to a point where I would ejaculate only by seeing a photo of for eg. regular anal penetration or even READING about anal sex without even touching myself. This happened to me twice. Needless to say I felt like a garbage afterwards. This is freaking insane.
A week after my first failure with my GF there was a second failure which was even worse. Initially after my first night of a shameful experience I decided to obstain from any visual content once and for all, and obstain from masturbation as long as possible. I thought 10 'clean' days would help big time, unforunately problems remained. Last time I made it for 10 days (NO FAP) ans I failed, yet not by jerking off- just tried to put a condom when I was by my own. Just wanted to see whether the brand fits or not and prepare well for the next time. To begin with, i had a hard time getting it up, but when I did, and while I was putting a condom on I ejaculated within the few seconds. I freaked out again. This happened while I was in the flatline.
While hanging out with my GF, I get erections just by holding her hand to be quate honest. Everything is fine unless the time for actual penetration comes. During the second time we tried to have sex all of a sudden I got myself into severe performance anxiety because the thoughts of not getting it up occupied my mind again. My GF got nervous as well, I had to explain to her multiple times that she's perfect- yet she continues blaming herself for not being good enough which is not true. She's very attractive physically and I was schocked that I was barely able to get a strong erection by kissing her all naked.
Ah, by the way- she's a virgin, so I kinda managed to mess up her two first intimate experiences with a man. Good job, buddy!
It's obvious that my problem is mental. I'm a healthy young man (21), I eat well, I've been into fitness for the past 7 years. My libido currently is on the lowest it's ever been, and I'm afraid to fail for a third time as well. Actually, I'm very afraid. I'm even considering to see a specialist on top of doing NO FAP, and continue 0 exposure to any unnatural triggers from no on.
Thanks in advance for any help or tips how to deal with the ED issue.
BTW- Doing NO FAP is great, yet it constantly gives me so called blue balls which eventually lead to a severe lower back pain. I can barely walk at times, and I know for sure, this is due to no fap.
I must admit I've been looking for a similiar site for more than 2 weeks or so, and I've to say this is the only one that looks like a good environment.
To begin with, I've to say that I have never had much of a sexual experience (very little, actually), and on top of that, occasions that happened to lead to sex, of course haven't been the most succesful either. But I've never been a serious porn addict - up until now I would watch a regular clip for no longer than 5-8 min. once a month or two.
Yet it is quate clear that addiction I'm talking about doesn't completely rely on time you spend watching porn, but rather the intensity and overall impact of the visuals.
The problem that I have is the one that of lot of us have- I simply can't get fully erected while being with my GF. A week ago I invited her into my apartment, things got quate serious and it could have been a great time for our first sex, yet my ED killed the romance completely. I felt like a loser, needless to say, I freaked out.
As I was getting more and more intimate with my GF, I used to check porn sites, and pictures slightly more often. But then again- only for a couple of minutes, maybe once a week. But that was enough to mess up my mind big time. I suddenly developed a new fetish- anal sex, which occupied my mind so much and brought so many unstability in my mind. Needless to say this is fuckin insane.
It got to a point where I would ejaculate only by seeing a photo of for eg. regular anal penetration or even READING about anal sex without even touching myself. This happened to me twice. Needless to say I felt like a garbage afterwards. This is freaking insane.
A week after my first failure with my GF there was a second failure which was even worse. Initially after my first night of a shameful experience I decided to obstain from any visual content once and for all, and obstain from masturbation as long as possible. I thought 10 'clean' days would help big time, unforunately problems remained. Last time I made it for 10 days (NO FAP) ans I failed, yet not by jerking off- just tried to put a condom when I was by my own. Just wanted to see whether the brand fits or not and prepare well for the next time. To begin with, i had a hard time getting it up, but when I did, and while I was putting a condom on I ejaculated within the few seconds. I freaked out again. This happened while I was in the flatline.
While hanging out with my GF, I get erections just by holding her hand to be quate honest. Everything is fine unless the time for actual penetration comes. During the second time we tried to have sex all of a sudden I got myself into severe performance anxiety because the thoughts of not getting it up occupied my mind again. My GF got nervous as well, I had to explain to her multiple times that she's perfect- yet she continues blaming herself for not being good enough which is not true. She's very attractive physically and I was schocked that I was barely able to get a strong erection by kissing her all naked.
Ah, by the way- she's a virgin, so I kinda managed to mess up her two first intimate experiences with a man. Good job, buddy!
It's obvious that my problem is mental. I'm a healthy young man (21), I eat well, I've been into fitness for the past 7 years. My libido currently is on the lowest it's ever been, and I'm afraid to fail for a third time as well. Actually, I'm very afraid. I'm even considering to see a specialist on top of doing NO FAP, and continue 0 exposure to any unnatural triggers from no on.
Thanks in advance for any help or tips how to deal with the ED issue.
BTW- Doing NO FAP is great, yet it constantly gives me so called blue balls which eventually lead to a severe lower back pain. I can barely walk at times, and I know for sure, this is due to no fap.