Conquer. Personal Growth.

[robust]

Hi. 8)

Nothing special to report. Horny in the morning (and evening), not so horny during daytime. Penis looks good. Harder morning-woods than ever. No more mood-swings. Sleep is improving again. One thing I can proudly tell is that there are no flashbacks or imaginations of old porn anymore. There's no desire. Well, I didn't watch porn for several weeks now. I'm way more sentimental as I've ever been before. I think I "rewired" with my emotions. Introspection makes huge steps forward. I've always been introspective, but there are big improvements. I would not say that I am introverted, though. Time passes by. Life seems shorter.

Just watched the new 300. Quite a good movie, but not as good as the first one. Still worth watching it.

I'm waiting and look forward to meet that girl.. But strangely, I'm neither impatient, nor nervous.

All in all, it's harder than ever due to the horniness. At the same moment, it's easier than ever due to the improvements. I regard the desire to "share" my juice as natural. And this is why I can deal with it. I returned and rewired to nature.

Enjoy this one: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=29QMWYbtERk.

See you. I'm done.

 

[tkn0]

Good luck with the girl mate, keep going strong!

 

[robust]

Good luck with the girl mate, keep going strong!

If there are no suprises, everything will be fine. I've got a good feeling with her.

 

[tkn0]

Is it the club girl? or the "old" one?

 

[robust]

Is it the club girl? or the "old" one?

The "old" one. I'm not interested in the girl from the club. Not at all. A friend of mine suggested to keep her as a back door. But I don't want a back door. I'm a man, who - in the important cases - plays all in. I don't need safety.

 

[tkn0]

A friend of mine suggested to keep her as a back door.

You are a real man, very much so.
Only weak men who are afraid to be alone need a "back door".
Real men go for the woman they want, and they succeed.
They dont need backdoors, cause the front door always opens!

Cheers mate.
Good luck.

 

[Card]

Your experience at the club made me smile. Good luck with the girl you're after! I agree with tk - good for you for not relying on a back door.

 

[Partingglass]

Damn brother, wish I was as honorable as you. I gotta get my act together with these girls. It's not so much as I keep a backdoor, as I just can't make up my mind and both girls are flaky so when one flakes I go to the other. I know this is stupid as Fuck and unhealthy, but its been this way for years with these two.  I gotta stop it. More inspiration from you lol. 

Hope you are killing it man, I know you are. I'll stay in touch.

 

[robust]

lol wut. Didn't expect this kind of answers. Thanks, brothers.

A friend of mine suggested to keep her as a back door.

You are a real man, very much so.
Only weak men who are afraid to be alone need a "back door".
Real men go for the woman they want, and they succeed.
They dont need backdoors, cause the front door always opens!

Yeah, it would be a compromise to hook up with the girl from the club. And I hate compromises. I'd rather die alone than making a bad deal. So there's nothing to be afraid of. If there is not door at all, I'll run my head against the wall. That's me..

Your experience at the club made me smile. Good luck with the girl you're after! I agree with tk - good for you for not relying on a back door.

Yeah, it makes me smile too. I'm sitting here with a fat grin.

Damn brother, wish I was as honorable as you. I gotta get my act together with these girls. It's not so much as I keep a backdoor, as I just can't make up my mind and both girls are flaky so when one flakes I go to the other. I know this is stupid as Fuck and unhealthy, but its been this way for years with these two.  I gotta stop it. More inspiration from you lol. 

Hope you are killing it man, I know you are. I'll stay in touch.

You just have to know what you want. Flaky girls are a waste of time (for me -  I don't like that attitude; but everybody has to know what he does with his time and who he's hanging around with). If I were you, I would have flipped out already. The choice of who you are spending time with is a difficult one. It should be well considered.

 

[robust]

Hey mates.

Not much to say. Life goes on. No changes.

It's the silence before the storm.

See you tomorrow. I'm done.

 

[robust]

Not much to say. Life goes on.

Two spontaneous boners, yet. Morning Woods a little bit weaker than the last days. Pretty good mood, although a little bit tired. The hard workouts of the last two weeks pay their tribute. No more "euphoric superpowers". Not sure if used to or gone.

Going to see her tonight. Just a couple of hours left. Soon.. 8)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YobRY8qdqhQ.

Done.

 

[tkn0]

Not much to say. Life goes on.

Two spontaneous boners, yet. Morning Woods a little bit weaker than the last days. Pretty good mood, although a little bit tired. The hard workouts of the last two weeks pay their tribute. No more "euphoric superpowers". Not sure if used to or gone.

Going to see her tonight. Just a couple of hours left. Soon.. 8)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YobRY8qdqhQ.

Done.

Tell me how it went mate.
Much love.

 

[robust]

Not much to say. Life goes on.

Two spontaneous boners, yet. Morning Woods a little bit weaker than the last days. Pretty good mood, although a little bit tired. The hard workouts of the last two weeks pay their tribute. No more "euphoric superpowers". Not sure if used to or gone.

Going to see her tonight. Just a couple of hours left. Soon.. 8)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YobRY8qdqhQ.

Done.

Tell me how it went mate.
Much love.

Probably Friday, maybe tomorrow morning. I'll be back. Strange things are happening. Things, that I cannot predict. Things, that I don't have control of. Gotta take care of them. Not only with regards to that girl. Also in "real life".

Actually, everything is fine. Don't worry. Show must go on. No cravings, since I am fucking busy. My head is full of stuff.

See you guys. No song of the day. No time to listen to music.

Done.

 

[tkn0]

Probably Friday, maybe tomorrow morning. I'll be back. Strange things are happening. Things, that I cannot predict. Things, that I don't have control of. Gotta take care of them. Not only with regards to that girl. Also in "real life".

Actually, everything is fine. Don't worry. Show must go on. No cravings, since I am fucking busy. My head is full of stuff.

See you guys. No song of the day. No time to listen to music.

Done.

Good luck with everything mate, stay strong. Much love.

 

[robust]

Hard times, hard times..

I guess, you want to know about that girl first. Well, let's say.. It will be harder than I thought. Damn, whenever we meet I feel amazing. And she does so too. But: she needs a lot of safety. Getting to her heart will take me a lot of digging. I don't know why, but I think something happened in her past. I'm not sure. I can't stop thinking about her. This will be a marathon, not a sprint. But she's worth it. She's a soulmate. As you can't help me with that, I'm not going to tell you more. Fact is, that this stuff puts a strain on me. She's a challenge.

Yeah.. What more to say? My penis was dead the last three days. I was depressed. 'Rien ne vas plus'. Nothing was possible. I felt like shit. I cried for short times (seriously). I just hit a flatline.

... BUT ...

Strangly, my performance is as good as never before. I'm concentrated, my endurance during cardio-session, my strenght, my ability to talk to people, my introspection, reading, just everything is on a top-level.

However, I never have a good and satisfying feeling. It's paradox. Rationally, I know that I'm "great". But the feeling.. Dammit.

What I have to do is to realize (which I already do) that it is just a feeling. It's "only" my emotions, which are pulling me down. It's winter now, but summer is coming again. Do the damn thing. My ratio is my best friend at the moment.

There was a strange moment. Let me tell you about it. I needed to take a shower and as you know, I'm only taking cold ones. Suddenly, my whole body got cold. I was freezing. My brain told me to take a hot shower. Well, no.. I took a cold one anyway. After that, my whole body got pretty warm. Strange thing, dudes. What the heck is going on?

Another thing that "stresses" me is that many people want something from me right now. I don't know why, but it seems that everybody wants to meet me. I can't hang around with everybody though. I'm not used to that. It gets on my nerves.

Let me tell you one more thing. I knew that this journey was going to be a hard one. But I didn't expect it to be such a down-pulling thing for the whole body and mind. I expected to be horny as hell, but the impacts which this fucking addiction took.. They are insane. The last days, I couldn't even eat properly.

Today was quite good. Hard morning wood (still not 100%), pretty horny all the day. Workout was fine. Penis and glanse not as small as the last days. I'm going out tonight.

One thing that is positive is that there are no imaginations of hardcore stuff anymore. Not at all. Zero. Nada. Welcome to reality. There are so many good things that happened. But the last days.. Damn, that wasn't easy.

Tomorrow will be day 28. Four weeks!!!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MTy7ugrSFz4. Lots of blues necessary. Calms me down.

Not even close to be done. :-X

 

[robust]

Sorry, one more thing.

I'm not even thinking about masturbating. I'm horny. But I got used to not doing it. It makes things easier.

Man, I'm tired of fighting all the time. Tired of all that bullshit out there. Tired of all that bullshit in here.

 

[robust]

BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAM. 8)

Weight is under 220. 99,8 Kilo. Earlier than expected.

I slept so damn good, brothers. It seems like I had a night full of dreams. But not those "nightmare-shit-dreams".. I'm speaking of those dreams you don't want to wake up from. Been cuddling and fooling around with a girl I know for hours. I've been to some of the nicest places in the world (I've visited them all in real-life, yet; so it my dreams were a nice reminder). I hooked up with people who were just the way I am. I'm well-rested now. It's time to write a term-paper. This is going to be easy, dudes.

Last night, some friends of mine came to my place. Only male friends. True love, so to speak. We had the deepest conversations. That was truly some philosophical stuff that was going on. Everybody was flipping the fuck out. Finally, we've become loud because everybody was so enthusiastic about speaking that just everyone of us talked. Yeah.. Those are the moments I'd like to have in my life all the time. Went to a club afterwards, didn't stay long. I was tired, so I went home.

Nice thick boner after waking up. Hornier than ever. I really would like to release some tension, but not on my own. 8) Well, actually I just want to have a warm female body besides me. Want to feel the breath on my skin. Soon. 8)

The last days were crap. Yesterday was okay. But the next time is going to be great. I can feel it.

Dunno what he's singing about, but I like it: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F6jilw-6X_E.

Reading more books about love by the way.

See you soon. I'm not even close to be done. 8)

 

[Card]

Good for you, Robust.

Keep it up!

 

[robust]

Keep it up!

Of course. 8)

Just wrote 17 (!) pages of my term-paper. Finished it within a couple of hours. I'll re-read it tomorrow. But it's one of the best papers I've written so far. And all of them were quite good.

 

[robust]

I won't say much today, another person can do that way better for me:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gI6sARmxEuc. 8)

Overall, my health is improving. Besides the size and looks of my penis and glanse, my joints seem to feel smoother. My physical and mental stamina is increasing.

I hope that the downturn of the last week is finally over and won't come back. That was some harsh stuff, dudes. It took me a lot of effort of my mind to overcome this. I never thought about giving up this journey here, but I just felt like crap. That's not comfortable at all, as you can imagine. Some of you guys may expierence that as well. You'll feel like a lion in a cage. And you can't get out of it. The only thing you know is that you will escape one day. And thankfully, I escaped earlier than I thougt. Just be aware that this is just an emotional state you can get away from.

Done.