Seems like things are starting to get back on track. Had a great weekend with The Missus and the Little Monk behaved perfectly! No PIED or PIDE in sight.
Amazingly, the more "in the moment" I was, the more aroused I became! Something as seemingly minor as just caressing her face was a huge turn on. It was like my senses had been reawakened and all those little details...scent of her hair...feel of the sheets...were more exciting than any image or fantasy I could conjure up in my head.
It felt so good to release, I was actually giggling with joy afterwards!
And I was hit by the obvious (yet alien) realization that no porn or fantasy will ever be as enjoyable as the real thing. And the key is to channel all that vivid imagination in to present moment.
But, winning one battle doesn't win the war. So, I'll reset my counter for this week and continue on the current path.
Seems to be going in the right direction.
Amazingly, the more "in the moment" I was, the more aroused I became! Something as seemingly minor as just caressing her face was a huge turn on. It was like my senses had been reawakened and all those little details...scent of her hair...feel of the sheets...were more exciting than any image or fantasy I could conjure up in my head.
It felt so good to release, I was actually giggling with joy afterwards!
And I was hit by the obvious (yet alien) realization that no porn or fantasy will ever be as enjoyable as the real thing. And the key is to channel all that vivid imagination in to present moment.
But, winning one battle doesn't win the war. So, I'll reset my counter for this week and continue on the current path.
Seems to be going in the right direction.