PeaceOfMind062012
Active Member
Siphus! Thanks so much for that quote! That's super helpful.
Like I was mentioning, I'm having a few stresses hit me all at once right now - low money, declined request to go on a date, trying to quit P and recently relapsing. So I think that I'm dealing with a lot of internal shame and non-forgiveness due to all of these, not just the relapse. Therefore it's really interesting and good to read what you wrote about self-forgiveness. I can apply it to these other areas of my life that make me feel ashamed. I find that when negative things start to pile up, they all interact and reinforce each other. I think that's also true for positive things. I guess that's kind of the law of attraction.
Yeah, so that's the place I've been in the past several days. Not in a super great mood - but hey - I relapsed only once, and haven?t fallen in too deep since. But ya know, it's funny, I was so happy when I was on my first big run of reboot - so proud to say I hadn't PMO'ed in 2, 3 weeks, you know? That when I did relapsed, I kind of retreated into the shadows, and didn't want to post on here. I guess that's shame at work. It's also compounded by the shame/guilt from the other negative stuff in my life........
Well the only place to go when you're on the bottom is up!
This addiction is such a challenging thing. Man why do we have shame? I hate it. We'd be so much better off without shame. It really feels like the little demon on my shoulder just hurling insults at me......what a strange thing that we humans have, hey?
Any suggestions for feelings of shame / feelings of inadequacy / feeling like a failure?
Much love!
-Peace
Like I was mentioning, I'm having a few stresses hit me all at once right now - low money, declined request to go on a date, trying to quit P and recently relapsing. So I think that I'm dealing with a lot of internal shame and non-forgiveness due to all of these, not just the relapse. Therefore it's really interesting and good to read what you wrote about self-forgiveness. I can apply it to these other areas of my life that make me feel ashamed. I find that when negative things start to pile up, they all interact and reinforce each other. I think that's also true for positive things. I guess that's kind of the law of attraction.
Yeah, so that's the place I've been in the past several days. Not in a super great mood - but hey - I relapsed only once, and haven?t fallen in too deep since. But ya know, it's funny, I was so happy when I was on my first big run of reboot - so proud to say I hadn't PMO'ed in 2, 3 weeks, you know? That when I did relapsed, I kind of retreated into the shadows, and didn't want to post on here. I guess that's shame at work. It's also compounded by the shame/guilt from the other negative stuff in my life........
Well the only place to go when you're on the bottom is up!
This addiction is such a challenging thing. Man why do we have shame? I hate it. We'd be so much better off without shame. It really feels like the little demon on my shoulder just hurling insults at me......what a strange thing that we humans have, hey?
Any suggestions for feelings of shame / feelings of inadequacy / feeling like a failure?
Much love!
-Peace