gummianka
Active Member
I am 40+ and I just hit rock bottom. After a really bad relationship in the past, and then many unfulfilling encounters with women, I decided to quit dating at all. This celibacy lasted for a few years.
I have always used porn, to some degree, and for the last few years I used it a lot. As I now read about this, I see that my story with porn is not unique, but very common. Some time ago I actually met a woman I was genuinly interesed in, and to my horror I realized that I could not get it up. I want her, I am crazy about her but I just cannot go through having sex with her. We live quite a bit apart, so will only see her once every month at best, and this goddamn PIED is ruining everything. When sex failed I tested a few days after with porn, and sure, I could get an erection.
I am at a really dark place now. Will go and see a doctor as soon as I can get an appointment, but already know that this is the main cause. Been wiping my PC clean now and installed a porn filter, and tomorrow will be my first day of no porn. I have for some time been edging only, thinking that ejaculation was the bad thing, but now I have found out that I have been actually making it worse by doing that.
Suppose I only want to went. Not sure where this will lead, but I really know that I do not want to be the person I am today. Any feedback is welcomed, and I will try to keep this updated on what happens if I can help, or possibly even better, warn anyone else.
Realizing that jacking off to pixels on a screen could be sabotaging one of the best opprtunities to find happiness in my life is a hard blow indeed.
I have always used porn, to some degree, and for the last few years I used it a lot. As I now read about this, I see that my story with porn is not unique, but very common. Some time ago I actually met a woman I was genuinly interesed in, and to my horror I realized that I could not get it up. I want her, I am crazy about her but I just cannot go through having sex with her. We live quite a bit apart, so will only see her once every month at best, and this goddamn PIED is ruining everything. When sex failed I tested a few days after with porn, and sure, I could get an erection.
I am at a really dark place now. Will go and see a doctor as soon as I can get an appointment, but already know that this is the main cause. Been wiping my PC clean now and installed a porn filter, and tomorrow will be my first day of no porn. I have for some time been edging only, thinking that ejaculation was the bad thing, but now I have found out that I have been actually making it worse by doing that.
Suppose I only want to went. Not sure where this will lead, but I really know that I do not want to be the person I am today. Any feedback is welcomed, and I will try to keep this updated on what happens if I can help, or possibly even better, warn anyone else.
Realizing that jacking off to pixels on a screen could be sabotaging one of the best opprtunities to find happiness in my life is a hard blow indeed.