Day 29
Thanks a lot, Blue, I made it through the most difficult part and today I feel a lot better already. The weekend was my least productive during this reboot so far because I couldn't concentrate on reading or doing something creative. I made it 29 days hard mode and didn't even have any wet dreams so far, never went that long without any O.
Going to the gym saved me as I returned with more energy despite a really heavy workout, cravings also decreased, I left my phone in the car and went to bed immediately where I fell asleep after reading a few pages. Today I can say it was totally worth it as I am getting back in shape step by step and don't start at day 0 but at day 29. I totally lost my focus during the weekend and have to develop strategies to convince myself that urges will pass.
My brain goes into some kind of autopilot and really tortures me with the thought of "Either you give in now or this will become worse!", I can't concentrate on anything and feel no energy to do my daily tasks. The gym is actually the best way to deal with those feelings, because it's just physical exhaustion that gives me some natural pleasure, not much concentration needed.
Plan for the rest of today: No porn - instead I am preparing fresh vegetables, will go to the gym again and sleep early. I'm still wondering how I binged on YouTube without switching to porn subs, but I won't risk it again. I was playing with fire and hopefully learned my lesson.