New day. I'v'e been cutting back on alcohol consumption in conjunction with this reboot, which I'm not sure helps or not. When you're used to "relaxing" with a few drinks (or more
) and just quit, it produces a whole different set of challenges and anxiety separate from dealing with PMO addiction.
Oh well, either way it's my current path to get healthier mentally and physically. I quit smoking years ago but did start enjoying cigars in the early 2000's. I've cut way back on that as well, since the cigars and alcohol sort of always paired together for me. I'm also considering cutting back on caffeine to try to even out my energy levels and sleep a little better. I already have a sleep disorder, sleep apnea, and NOOOO, I'm not overweight. I'm 6', 190 lbs. However, my waist has been hovering in the 38-inch range. I need to get that back to 34-35 in. and I'll be content. I also exercise fairly regularly, 4-5 days a week (moderate weights, incline treadmill, occasional HIIT)
I also cut my own grass, hand wash my own cars, and help with the lawn care, grounds keeping, and maintenance at my church. Mentioning all of this has no real intention other than to sort of present myself as just a regular "joe", probably like a lot of guys here. I have self improvement goals but know I must also take things one day at a time.
MY PMO progression began by seeing girlie mags for the first time back in the 60's (age 8 or 9 ), then Super 8mm "stag" films courtesy of my older brothers at age 13. Then it progressed to VHS, hardcore mags, dial up internet, and now the fastest internet money can buy.
When I was oversees in the Marine Corps I dabbled with Japanese, Korean, and Filipino prostitutes. Prior to that I had some sexual encounters in my late teens, but really very few. Girls really liked me but I was shy and lacked confidence. After the Marines I came back home and throughout my 20's had 3 LTRs ( two of which each had a child ). Met my wife at age 29 and have been with her for 26 yrs. I cheated on one of the former girlfriends one time, that's it. That's the extent of me "acting out".
My sex drive has always been pretty high and porn has really helped settle me down. BUT, we all know where it leads. I have a really good looking wife who takes care of herself. I have no reason to look elsewhere. She's has a lot of integrity, is honest and caring. She really looks out for me. I'll expand more on another post about our intimacy issues (maybe ;D) I know this, I love her and she deserves better than I've given her. I'll paint a clearer picture of our lives in further posts, mainly as a way to relate to other similar guys here on the forum . I would bet my situation has a lot in common with "some" of you.
Well, that's it for the moment. This post wasn't meant to turn into the "stream of consciousness" missive that it did. Soooo.....
Ciao! ( I learned that in Italy a couple years ago 8) )