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Boo, great to have you here. You have been a great support to me. Thank you. FF
Boo said:Anyway, triggers do come and go and I know the end goal is to change my psychology regarding them. I truly believe this is possible. I think it is ultimately much harder to try to eliminate all triggers from one's life ( unless you go live in a cave). My goal is to be fully conscious of how I walk through this life and experience all the sights, sounds, etc. and know that I'm a man in control of himself and not an animal driven by baser "instincts" i.e. I am changing from a man controlled by a carnal nature to a man living in peace with himself. Moment by moment. Day by day.
Leon said:Boo said:Anyway, triggers do come and go and I know the end goal is to change my psychology regarding them. I truly believe this is possible. I think it is ultimately much harder to try to eliminate all triggers from one's life ( unless you go live in a cave). My goal is to be fully conscious of how I walk through this life and experience all the sights, sounds, etc. and know that I'm a man in control of himself and not an animal driven by baser "instincts" i.e. I am changing from a man controlled by a carnal nature to a man living in peace with himself. Moment by moment. Day by day.
Well said, Boo. It's not the triggers themselves, but how we respond (or rather, not respond) to them. Some may not agree, but the triggers or stimuli themselves will change for us over time. For example driving by a bill board doesn't affect me as it once did, or driving by a porno bookstore doesn't have the same 'pull' it once had on me.
You should be fine, keeping to that 2-second rule thing. Will keep you in mind, and have a good vacation.
Boo said:Thanks Leon. Yes, I will definitely be observing the 2-second rule at the beach. I never really "stare" because, honestly, I would never want my wife to notice that and somehow feel hurt or diminished. But, I totally understand the rule as you explain it and how it keeps images from burning into the mind and possibly fueling lustful thoughts as opposed to a quick acknowledgement of beauty. Great strategy for personal responsibility in controlling one's thoughts. Practice, practice, practice
Leon, I also wanted to tell you that I've read through the first 3 pages of your journal. There's so much great interaction between you and others and really too many golden nuggets to try to start quoting stuff. I knew it would be that way which is why I bookmarked it in my signature. It's a valuable resource for me thus far and I want to thank you for your efforts to share. I've got a long way to go but I'm more resolved now than in the past. I'm still concerned about lapses but I'm trying to learn to take life as it comes, because it will, and I know that PMO as a coping mechanism is not the answer.
Leon said:Well done, Boo! And congratulations on 30 days and beyond.
Blessings.
Congrats on the success and blessings.Boo said:Thanks fyg. Reconnecting with my wife and the subsequent rewiring is a crucial part of victory, at least for me. I'll admit that if I were single it would pose a greater challenge, if only out of boredom and loneliness. It's really about seeing the truth of what my wife really means to me. That's a big part of it. It's living on a higher plane of existence that is not being ruled by my fleshly nature.
In my own awareness of my sexual nature, I guess I'm trying to recapture the "sacredness" of my union with my wife, both the physical as well as the mental aspect of our lives together....what the Bible refers to as being "equally yoked" ( If I'm remembering correctly. I'm not a scholar, to be sure). I guess this makes sense to some of you. :-\