Day 33:
I have come to realize that taking care of little ones is a good way to kind of calm the mind down and focus more on life rather than PMO. At least for me that is... I've been around here taking care of my nephew and just holding onto him and making sure he is resting and exercising and sleeping well not only takes up a lot of the day, but also brings me a lot of joy. Seeing him be so well behaved when I am holding onto him or watching him is a lot of fun for me. I'm kind of glad that I took the time out to come here and be with family, not just for the sake of hoping that family interaction would decrease my urges to PMO, but also just to make sure my nephew is doing well and that my brother and his wife were not too stressed out or exhausted from being too over worked.
As for the events that went on today, nothing much... aside from watching the kid, helping to take the trash to the dump, taking a few business calls... There have been no real major urges. I have slowly been working on my scanning and staring. I was able to not stare after noticing a few girls in short shorts today which is much improved over myself previously. I saw them out of the corner of my eye, and told myself "My self control is more important than any urges. I do not let these urges have power over me" and after that forced myself to keep looking ahead and ignored them. Mentally I could hear the dialogue in my head saying she could have a gorgeous face as well? or those legs might not be as big as you think... but I had to literally talk to myself to tell myself no. Just mentally thinking no wasn't doing me any good, but once I heard myself say it it made a difference.
Anyways that's about it for today... nothing else crazy happened... Write to ya all tomorrow. Keep up the good work! And if you fall off, it's ok, just get back up immediately. Worst thing you can do is binge on that addiction after falling.
I have come to realize that taking care of little ones is a good way to kind of calm the mind down and focus more on life rather than PMO. At least for me that is... I've been around here taking care of my nephew and just holding onto him and making sure he is resting and exercising and sleeping well not only takes up a lot of the day, but also brings me a lot of joy. Seeing him be so well behaved when I am holding onto him or watching him is a lot of fun for me. I'm kind of glad that I took the time out to come here and be with family, not just for the sake of hoping that family interaction would decrease my urges to PMO, but also just to make sure my nephew is doing well and that my brother and his wife were not too stressed out or exhausted from being too over worked.
As for the events that went on today, nothing much... aside from watching the kid, helping to take the trash to the dump, taking a few business calls... There have been no real major urges. I have slowly been working on my scanning and staring. I was able to not stare after noticing a few girls in short shorts today which is much improved over myself previously. I saw them out of the corner of my eye, and told myself "My self control is more important than any urges. I do not let these urges have power over me" and after that forced myself to keep looking ahead and ignored them. Mentally I could hear the dialogue in my head saying she could have a gorgeous face as well? or those legs might not be as big as you think... but I had to literally talk to myself to tell myself no. Just mentally thinking no wasn't doing me any good, but once I heard myself say it it made a difference.
Anyways that's about it for today... nothing else crazy happened... Write to ya all tomorrow. Keep up the good work! And if you fall off, it's ok, just get back up immediately. Worst thing you can do is binge on that addiction after falling.