As I have found don't worry about the need to masturbate. It's perfectly normal and I have done so myself only in the last few days. It was nice to wake up with some decent wood and just self pleasure. No need to wake my partner who is very tired these days and suffering from poor sleep patterns. Just nice to know it was thoughts of HER getting me that woody!
I wasn't surprised by the fact that I came quickly. If you think about it, for most of us high speed internet has meant high speed porn and high speed ejuculation. We'll have to recover control over the 'hounrable member' before he can stand in the house again and not 'instantly loose his deposit as an independent.'(Sorry,man adaptation of an old gag from Private Eye!)
That will come and Inam totally fortunate in having a partner who is not shall we say 'highly sexed.' I reckon the ex-wife was odd really. A woman who never masturbated! She honestly didn't. I think it must have been a feeling of discomfort with her own body but I had to be inside her for her to come. It was like it was her 'gold standard', the ultimate gourmet feast, no snacking between meals, just the meat and two veg as and when needed. Problem was feeling very depressed at constantly being told how useless I was did not encourage sexual contact. Add to that being exhausted because of untreated sleep Aponea and I guess the guy whom she left me for ticked all the boxes and still rings her bell! Good luck to them both I say! I'm happy, living a great life and still get to see both my Sons. What more could a man ask for from his life?
The need to cry dam associate with all kinds of things. It may be a hang over for repressed grief reaction, you may be mourning a part of you that you have lost or are in process of loosing. If it hels as a release just cry. Although cried immediately at the death of my Father, I in fact howled the place down, it took over 18months to cry for my Mother and that was alone, in her old house, while clearing the last of her things. Don't worry if you don't have a read on to cry, your brain just seems to need to, so cry!
Sounds like you are progressing. War all know images are all around us. I just get myself to a point of filtering them out. I smile because I can see how much the marketers want to hook us men in by our crotches! This whole thing of needing to feel potency helps these people to sell us stuff we want with our eyes and pay for from our pockets. Sometimes it helps just to remember that these models are people, just like us! They wake, sleep, eat, fart, cry, laugh, have famalies, have kids, have job kids, get diseases, die and do all the stuff ordinary humans do...They know they are being exploited but they also know they are smart enough to be paid...However, as recovering pron addicts we need to refocus on their humanity...We've chooses to turn these people into OBJECTS before and we do feel sorry for doing as much. So now, when they continue to do their jobs, we DONT have to look,at them in the same way. We can CHOOSE to see a REAL person not a chance for a wank!
