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cknfella, long time no speak - been having some time away from here for the last couple of months but thought I'd check back in.
Awesome to see you're still here and still on your journey.
Just had a look through your last few posts - and just had a thought. There were a lot of comments about wanting to 'fight' - that word just kept cropping up. Make sure you don't get too caught up 'fighting' all the time - as soon as we rely on fighting this thing away, we'll fail - our brains are addicted and will take the easy route to surrender every time. Roll with the urges, embrace them, let them come - they will come, but they are not you. When an urge comes, think about it, accept it as an urge, roll with it and then move on, with something else. You can fight, and add blockers, and get your wife to block apps, and fight, fight, fight til you can't fight any more but it just doesn't work as a sustainable strategy - it all ends up becoming about the fight instead of getting on with something else. Block porn? You'll end up on Netflix. Block Netflix? You'll end up on YouTube. Block YouTube? You'll find something else. On it goes. These are all useful techniques but I'm convinced they need to occur in a wider approach that ends up meaning it's not the blockers that save you - it's you that changes.
Also, it's such a blessing that you have a supportive wife. But I guarantee you she'd rather get on with her life with her husband not addicted to watching porn, than she would helping you block apps on your phone. With such a supportive partner you can have a life ahead of you of such strength and blessing to each other - but only once you get this beast behind you.
Finally, you're a pastor. Your church depends on you, and needs you to be PMO free. I'm lucky - I didn't have the responsibilities you do in leading and guiding a church. I was able to fluff around for far too long trying and trying to quit before I eventually seem to have got there. You have the blessing of being a leader, but that raises the stakes for you immensely. 1 Timothy 3 lays out the requirements for church leaders and I challenge you to see how PMO fits into that picture. From what I see in your posts you seem like you'd be a blessing to your church - you seem like a genuine, compassionate, Christ-focused leader - but your Church needs you PMO free.
I'm probably being too harsh - I'm a fellow recovering addict myself, after all. But I have so much faith that you can beat this addiction and rid yourself of these final lingering issues with subs etc. My comments are made absolutely in love and the total belief that you can get this behind you and get on with your life PMO (and subs, and edging!) free. You've proven yourself before you can do it. It's time to get this nailed for good!
Awesome to see you're still here and still on your journey.
Just had a look through your last few posts - and just had a thought. There were a lot of comments about wanting to 'fight' - that word just kept cropping up. Make sure you don't get too caught up 'fighting' all the time - as soon as we rely on fighting this thing away, we'll fail - our brains are addicted and will take the easy route to surrender every time. Roll with the urges, embrace them, let them come - they will come, but they are not you. When an urge comes, think about it, accept it as an urge, roll with it and then move on, with something else. You can fight, and add blockers, and get your wife to block apps, and fight, fight, fight til you can't fight any more but it just doesn't work as a sustainable strategy - it all ends up becoming about the fight instead of getting on with something else. Block porn? You'll end up on Netflix. Block Netflix? You'll end up on YouTube. Block YouTube? You'll find something else. On it goes. These are all useful techniques but I'm convinced they need to occur in a wider approach that ends up meaning it's not the blockers that save you - it's you that changes.
Also, it's such a blessing that you have a supportive wife. But I guarantee you she'd rather get on with her life with her husband not addicted to watching porn, than she would helping you block apps on your phone. With such a supportive partner you can have a life ahead of you of such strength and blessing to each other - but only once you get this beast behind you.
Finally, you're a pastor. Your church depends on you, and needs you to be PMO free. I'm lucky - I didn't have the responsibilities you do in leading and guiding a church. I was able to fluff around for far too long trying and trying to quit before I eventually seem to have got there. You have the blessing of being a leader, but that raises the stakes for you immensely. 1 Timothy 3 lays out the requirements for church leaders and I challenge you to see how PMO fits into that picture. From what I see in your posts you seem like you'd be a blessing to your church - you seem like a genuine, compassionate, Christ-focused leader - but your Church needs you PMO free.
I'm probably being too harsh - I'm a fellow recovering addict myself, after all. But I have so much faith that you can beat this addiction and rid yourself of these final lingering issues with subs etc. My comments are made absolutely in love and the total belief that you can get this behind you and get on with your life PMO (and subs, and edging!) free. You've proven yourself before you can do it. It's time to get this nailed for good!