ShadeTrenicin
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Great work BabySteps, how are you feeling about yourself right now?
Gaining control of Compulsive Masturbation
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ShadeTrenicin
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Excellent approach BS! To me this is one of the most important things (and one that I also struggle with); self love!
Keep it up man!
Keep it up man!
BabySteps
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Day 15
Pornography you have been my friend from the age 14, now I'm 35. You promised me good times, and good times we had, but the problem was after spending time with you I felt pathetic, drained of energy. At least you did make me feel good.
I never realized until now that you became more powerful in my mind because of MO, MO made you more interesting and addictive. You have been a friend to me, a friend I do miss. But I refuse to ever MO to you, will spend some time with you without MO until I totally get rid of you in my life.
No masturbation, no cravings!
Pornography you have been my friend from the age 14, now I'm 35. You promised me good times, and good times we had, but the problem was after spending time with you I felt pathetic, drained of energy. At least you did make me feel good.
I never realized until now that you became more powerful in my mind because of MO, MO made you more interesting and addictive. You have been a friend to me, a friend I do miss. But I refuse to ever MO to you, will spend some time with you without MO until I totally get rid of you in my life.
No masturbation, no cravings!
imsorrynotsorry
Active Member
Perfectly said.
15 days is good, keep on going and stay focused. Do not let anything related to P or something else near to you.
15 days is good, keep on going and stay focused. Do not let anything related to P or something else near to you.
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Icandoit
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Don't peek and try not to "watch" too much porn in your head from flashbacks. Minimizing the arousal at this stage is crucial. And don't let your guard down, thinking that a longer streak means you can "handle this". Good luck.
ShadeTrenicin
Well-Known Member
Hey BS, well said, nice piece of no-more-porn-proza!
How are you feeling now, do you still feel the need to go back to that CAM watching strategy or are you now content with the feeling of having lasted for 15(now 17 i guess) days already!
Keep strong buddy, I'm rooting for you
How are you feeling now, do you still feel the need to go back to that CAM watching strategy or are you now content with the feeling of having lasted for 15(now 17 i guess) days already!
Keep strong buddy, I'm rooting for you
BabySteps
Active Member
Hey ImSorryNotSorry
I just don't think I'm ready for a porn free life, now I want to fight this MO to porn then after I'll focus on getting rid of porn completely.
Hey IcanDoIt
I just want to go with baby step, will get to the point were I leave porn free!
Hey ShadeTrenicin
Yeah I'm still watching CAM girls once a week, when I'm comfortable with it will go to once a month, as long as I can resist MO things will get better.
So far I haven't MOd to porn or CAM girls. I feel more confident, more relaxed around the opposite sex. I just see improvements.
Thanks guys for your replies, very much appreciated!
I just don't think I'm ready for a porn free life, now I want to fight this MO to porn then after I'll focus on getting rid of porn completely.
Hey IcanDoIt
I just want to go with baby step, will get to the point were I leave porn free!
Hey ShadeTrenicin
Yeah I'm still watching CAM girls once a week, when I'm comfortable with it will go to once a month, as long as I can resist MO things will get better.
So far I haven't MOd to porn or CAM girls. I feel more confident, more relaxed around the opposite sex. I just see improvements.
Thanks guys for your replies, very much appreciated!
BabySteps
Active Member
Day 18
Watched CAM girls, then afterwards porn for about 50+ minutes. I started getting hard, felt like pmoing but I managed to resist the edge to MO. Then it went away.
I ended up being bored by the whole experience, closed my phone and went to sleep. I'm not proud of watching porn or CAM girls, but I feel like I have to reverse this this way.
Moving forward with hope
Watched CAM girls, then afterwards porn for about 50+ minutes. I started getting hard, felt like pmoing but I managed to resist the edge to MO. Then it went away.
I ended up being bored by the whole experience, closed my phone and went to sleep. I'm not proud of watching porn or CAM girls, but I feel like I have to reverse this this way.
Moving forward with hope
recovery000
Member
Hey BabySteps,
I read about your experiment of no MO but still watching P in order to separate these two. This is just my opinion, but it seems to me that you are playing with fire. I used to feel good about myself when watching cams or P with no MO. I felt strong. That would send me back to watching again and again. I thought I was in control. But I was still simulating my brain with the images. Then, surprise, I was not strong at all times and ended up engaging in pmo. I tried several times, and failed in every single one of them. I was playing with fire and every single time I got burned. I hope this does not happen to you. The only strategy I see, has been to cut off every source of sexual visual stimulus from my life to properly rewire my brain. I wish you all the best.
I read about your experiment of no MO but still watching P in order to separate these two. This is just my opinion, but it seems to me that you are playing with fire. I used to feel good about myself when watching cams or P with no MO. I felt strong. That would send me back to watching again and again. I thought I was in control. But I was still simulating my brain with the images. Then, surprise, I was not strong at all times and ended up engaging in pmo. I tried several times, and failed in every single one of them. I was playing with fire and every single time I got burned. I hope this does not happen to you. The only strategy I see, has been to cut off every source of sexual visual stimulus from my life to properly rewire my brain. I wish you all the best.
BabySteps
Active Member
Hey Recovery000
Your warning is very much appreciated!
I've been through this journey for many years, I'll find myself resisting to watch PMO for a good many days like 90+. Then I'll be triggered by something like a Sex scene in a movie or YouTube. I want to stop fearing to be triggered by such, then I'll focus on getting rid of this porn or CAM girls.
Thanks for your input buddy!!
Your warning is very much appreciated!
I've been through this journey for many years, I'll find myself resisting to watch PMO for a good many days like 90+. Then I'll be triggered by something like a Sex scene in a movie or YouTube. I want to stop fearing to be triggered by such, then I'll focus on getting rid of this porn or CAM girls.
Thanks for your input buddy!!
ShadeTrenicin
Well-Known Member
Hey BS, that is a great win! replacing the old harmful habits with a new and positive one is critical! Great job!
BabySteps
Active Member
Hey ShadeTrenicin
Thanks for the comment buddy!
Day 20
No masturbation, cravings are strong
Some girl friend of mine called me last night, we were having a general conversation but I got really hard for the rest of the conversation. Instead of trying to fight it, I let it be! Afterwards her call I went to sleep without even thinking of MO.
Moving forward!
Thanks for the comment buddy!
Day 20
No masturbation, cravings are strong
Some girl friend of mine called me last night, we were having a general conversation but I got really hard for the rest of the conversation. Instead of trying to fight it, I let it be! Afterwards her call I went to sleep without even thinking of MO.
Moving forward!
imsorrynotsorry
Active Member
You are learning to be in control and that's good, it's working.
And you know that absence is for a greater goal.
And you know that absence is for a greater goal.