Quitforeverthenwin
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Thanks bro! I will stay vigilant, but I am happy to report that after around 4 hours of socializing and physical activity the urges have nearly entirely subsided! I came here to post about something else and nearly forgot how strong they were before.
Doing one of my activities, I decided I had an enemy lol. I pick a little something that someone seems to have done to me, and decide they hate me and they treat me differently from anyone else. I just had my mind on this person and being annoyed with them, later on they started talking to me and were super nice........ I went as far as wanting to quit going to this place and burn a bunch of bridges.
It shows me goodness, I have such large large holes in my mindset and thoughts and just ability to socialize with people. I just get upset too easily and have these wildly irrational self-sabotaging thoughts that make me want to isolate myself and quit things that are good for me. I am not writing this as a woah is me. I actually feel good that I am aware of this and how irrational my thoughts are and happy that I have not been acting on them. It is massive room for improvement just keep recoring them and disputing them over and over, meditate stay sober etc. when these are gone, wow my life will be a lot easier and better
Doing one of my activities, I decided I had an enemy lol. I pick a little something that someone seems to have done to me, and decide they hate me and they treat me differently from anyone else. I just had my mind on this person and being annoyed with them, later on they started talking to me and were super nice........ I went as far as wanting to quit going to this place and burn a bunch of bridges.
It shows me goodness, I have such large large holes in my mindset and thoughts and just ability to socialize with people. I just get upset too easily and have these wildly irrational self-sabotaging thoughts that make me want to isolate myself and quit things that are good for me. I am not writing this as a woah is me. I actually feel good that I am aware of this and how irrational my thoughts are and happy that I have not been acting on them. It is massive room for improvement just keep recoring them and disputing them over and over, meditate stay sober etc. when these are gone, wow my life will be a lot easier and better