Sorry Gemini, I get that. I hope you find out what makes those urges appear and weed it out.I have no problems burning my bridges to P and building walls around me !
I am a f•ckin veteran when it comes to that !
My deep troubles rise fiercely from inside of me come to haunt me when I am so quick to rebuild those bridges to P when triggered after 7-8 days of pure abstinence.
Thats my life’s worst nightmares right now I don’t know how to deal with em !