quitforeverthenwin2
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Way to go man! Awesome that you have morning wood almost every day
Very likely to have a weird combination of venous leakage with pied. (25)
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Chris Oz
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Jeks said:
I'm really happy youre making progress. And I think it's a good thing your bladder problems wasn't caused by the erectile dysfunction and porn or was related in any way. I'm not sure what the bladder problem is as I've not read through your thread but I'm glad your medications are working. Also, it seems youre really doing well with your recovery with porn, I think its been months now. Keep it up, man. I hope you get to full recovery soon.
I will find time to read through later on.
Keep pushing back!
Thanks everyone for the amazing support.
I had a wet dream that night. Visuals were a bit more extreme in comparison to my last sex dreams, but it still feels like i take part in the dream myself, in contrast to just acting as an observer or even being in front of a screen.
Also i got a morning erection. Normally after a wet dream it would take a few days for erections to come back.
The bad news is, that my appointment with the doctor got cancelled. So i have to wait a little longer, until i can rule out Venous Leak for good. As long as morning erections are not a 100 %, it is always a possibilty lingering in my head. But because of the progress i am seeing, i think i will be able to handle waiting a little longer.
Good luck to all of you guys.
I had a wet dream that night. Visuals were a bit more extreme in comparison to my last sex dreams, but it still feels like i take part in the dream myself, in contrast to just acting as an observer or even being in front of a screen.
Also i got a morning erection. Normally after a wet dream it would take a few days for erections to come back.
The bad news is, that my appointment with the doctor got cancelled. So i have to wait a little longer, until i can rule out Venous Leak for good. As long as morning erections are not a 100 %, it is always a possibilty lingering in my head. But because of the progress i am seeing, i think i will be able to handle waiting a little longer.
Good luck to all of you guys.
For a week now i have the most success i have ever had in university. I feel like i can see through all the complex matters so easily. Makes me kind of sad to think about, how porn might have hurt my ability to study properly all these years. It was not just porn, but it played a big role in it i feel like looking back. But more importantly i finally have my cognitive strength back, without brain fog and tiredness. I have so much focus, concentration and perseverance.
Also finally my bladder seemes to be near to 100% again.
Last big step really is to get back full erections. But until then my mood is definitely much better. I feel calm and have peace of mind.
Stay strong guys!
Also finally my bladder seemes to be near to 100% again.
Last big step really is to get back full erections. But until then my mood is definitely much better. I feel calm and have peace of mind.
Stay strong guys!
Bladder problems go still on and off. Today was a little more difficult. Problem with that is, that it just drains so much energy. Energy that is missing for doing good stuff like learning.
In the end i will have to endure it for now. Chances are, that it will just go normal with time. When i look back 5 months ago, it is already so much better.
It is my only chance to become happy one day. I just have to stay strong a few more months or so. When my bladder problems are gone an when i know that my ED is indeed without a doubt only caused by porn, life will already be so promising.
In the last months i got myself back on track in regards to my studies and career. I wont allow this opportunity to slip away.
In the end i will have to endure it for now. Chances are, that it will just go normal with time. When i look back 5 months ago, it is already so much better.
It is my only chance to become happy one day. I just have to stay strong a few more months or so. When my bladder problems are gone an when i know that my ED is indeed without a doubt only caused by porn, life will already be so promising.
In the last months i got myself back on track in regards to my studies and career. I wont allow this opportunity to slip away.
Relentless Observer
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I feel you, Jeks.
If it werent for this PIED I would consider myself to be in a pretty good point in life. Yet, with the PIED unresolved as yet I typically feel alien or unhealthy...
Good luck. Stay strong.
If it werent for this PIED I would consider myself to be in a pretty good point in life. Yet, with the PIED unresolved as yet I typically feel alien or unhealthy...
Good luck. Stay strong.
Thanks Relentless Observer,
just a little bit longer. We just have got to push a little bit longer.
Thanks fapstranaut for this link. Its a good and inspiring summary what this is really all about.
https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/tools-for-change-recovery-from-porn-addiction/rebooting-advice-observations-from-successful-rebooters/abstinence-is-not-recovery-why-people-fail-to-cure-their-pied/
just a little bit longer. We just have got to push a little bit longer.
Thanks fapstranaut for this link. Its a good and inspiring summary what this is really all about.
https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/tools-for-change-recovery-from-porn-addiction/rebooting-advice-observations-from-successful-rebooters/abstinence-is-not-recovery-why-people-fail-to-cure-their-pied/
fapstranaut02
Active Member
Hey Jeks, I'm glad it has helped you. Some of the words really resonate with me.
Let go of the past, focus on building the new. Direct your time and your energy to achieve your goal, what do you want to improve in your life ? Get fit/lose weight/learn musical instrument and so on.. when you do that, you will let go of P addiction naturally, that way you are also filling the void with something meaningful. Rebooting is not only for curing PIED, but also mainly to improve and change your lifestyle for the better.
Relying on willpower alone really is not optimistic, you must also equip yourself with rebooting knowledge to know what you are facing and how you can overcome it. We need to realize we have very limited time in this world, can't waste all our youth on P now can we ?
I hope the best for you brother
Let go of the past, focus on building the new. Direct your time and your energy to achieve your goal, what do you want to improve in your life ? Get fit/lose weight/learn musical instrument and so on.. when you do that, you will let go of P addiction naturally, that way you are also filling the void with something meaningful. Rebooting is not only for curing PIED, but also mainly to improve and change your lifestyle for the better.
Relying on willpower alone really is not optimistic, you must also equip yourself with rebooting knowledge to know what you are facing and how you can overcome it. We need to realize we have very limited time in this world, can't waste all our youth on P now can we ?
I hope the best for you brother
Wtf... Had a wet dream that night about porn. After that i had pain in the grundle area. It was not very strong, but pretty unpleasant. Then i got a pretty good erection, which did not want to go away, but meanwhile i had this pain. Erection stayed for maybe 5-10 minutes or so, pain was coming and going over half an hour maybe. I think it is now gone.
Not sure, if i should go to a doctor and what to make out all of this. I think, when the pain comes again, i definitely will.
Not sure, if i should go to a doctor and what to make out all of this. I think, when the pain comes again, i definitely will.
My motivation is really on a big low. I am somehow dragging myself to a seminar at the moment, telling myself, that all will be fine one day and that it is my only chance to be happy one day.
What really gets to me the last months is not even so much my ED, but this whole bladder problem. What are the fucking chances, that on top of my erectyle dysfunction, probably caused by something a majority of people has never heard of, i get problems with my bladder, seemingly without any cause at all.
I made an appointment with my urologist, becausr of the pain i had yesterday. My meds for my bladder are going low anyways. But my actions are starting to get fueled by by just pure desperation.
Edit: turned around. It fucking feels like as if i have got fucking acid in my penis. I just hope the urologist finds something. I just dont have the strenght to sit there in seminar and keep smiling, while feeling totally life- and hopless inside. I think i also take tomorrow off. I have got therapy session tomorrow. I will go just there and will hope, that the urologist finds something on friday.
What really gets to me the last months is not even so much my ED, but this whole bladder problem. What are the fucking chances, that on top of my erectyle dysfunction, probably caused by something a majority of people has never heard of, i get problems with my bladder, seemingly without any cause at all.
I made an appointment with my urologist, becausr of the pain i had yesterday. My meds for my bladder are going low anyways. But my actions are starting to get fueled by by just pure desperation.
Edit: turned around. It fucking feels like as if i have got fucking acid in my penis. I just hope the urologist finds something. I just dont have the strenght to sit there in seminar and keep smiling, while feeling totally life- and hopless inside. I think i also take tomorrow off. I have got therapy session tomorrow. I will go just there and will hope, that the urologist finds something on friday.
Thanks zander, man i hope the struggle will end some day for both of us.
So, i think i wont participate today in the whole unsiversity stuff. I just dont find a way right now to push trough. However i have identified one thohght that calms me a little bit: It has gotten better over the last half year. I dont have to pee like 30 times daily. In the morning i font have the feelin anymore, as if my penis is on fire. Even if i have got the urge to pee, it is much easier as it was in the beginning.
Also, the pain yesterday suggests, that my prostate is likely involved in all of this. Because of that i did a bit of resesearch and bought some teas, that are supposedly helpful against problems with the prostate. I like to believe, that this already helped a bit.
Funny side effect, because of all this shit i dont even think about ED and Women.
Also, even though i am under a lot of stress it did not even cross my mind to watch P or to M. My inner protective mechanisms are working.
I wish you all well. Thank you all for the support.
So, i think i wont participate today in the whole unsiversity stuff. I just dont find a way right now to push trough. However i have identified one thohght that calms me a little bit: It has gotten better over the last half year. I dont have to pee like 30 times daily. In the morning i font have the feelin anymore, as if my penis is on fire. Even if i have got the urge to pee, it is much easier as it was in the beginning.
Also, the pain yesterday suggests, that my prostate is likely involved in all of this. Because of that i did a bit of resesearch and bought some teas, that are supposedly helpful against problems with the prostate. I like to believe, that this already helped a bit.
Funny side effect, because of all this shit i dont even think about ED and Women.
Also, even though i am under a lot of stress it did not even cross my mind to watch P or to M. My inner protective mechanisms are working.
I wish you all well. Thank you all for the support.
quitforeverthenwin2
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Hey man - glad to hear that it sounds like you are making some progress. And I agree about the inner protective mechanism! In a way feeling bad but not having any urge is a really cool thing. That is a huge sign of progress
Thanks quit,
in regards to P i dont have any worries right now. I am feeling super stable. M not quite as much, but still very safe.
Went to the doctor, no signs of something bad.
I dont want to call it too early, but this tea i have bought really seemes to aleviate the suffering quite a bit. I am drinking it for two days now and the urge to pee really feels milder i think.
Also i had improved morning wood this morning. For me that also might be a sign that things might improve in regards to my general health and its of course also a good sign in terms of rebooting. I definitely hope so.
Wish you all a good weekend.
in regards to P i dont have any worries right now. I am feeling super stable. M not quite as much, but still very safe.
Went to the doctor, no signs of something bad.
I dont want to call it too early, but this tea i have bought really seemes to aleviate the suffering quite a bit. I am drinking it for two days now and the urge to pee really feels milder i think.
Also i had improved morning wood this morning. For me that also might be a sign that things might improve in regards to my general health and its of course also a good sign in terms of rebooting. I definitely hope so.
Wish you all a good weekend.
zander13
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My two cents is that most of your penile issues stem from the withdrawals. My dick is constantly changing shape, and I've experienced that burning sensation you describe a couple of times throughout this reboot. I don't know why it happens, but yeah, I think a lot of the pain stems from getting over this shit.
Not sure bro,
it started back in may with bladder-infection like symptoms plus fever, light stomach pain and bloody (!) diarrhea. The inflammation markers in my blood were increased at that time. Who knows, but i would be really surprised, if withdrawals coul do something like this.
However, morning erections again were improved, which is a good sign from all perspectives. I hope that i can stabilize just a little more. At least my hopes are lit up in a way, that i feel the need and the motivation to work on my studies and that is always one of the best feelings for me.
Hope you all doing good.
it started back in may with bladder-infection like symptoms plus fever, light stomach pain and bloody (!) diarrhea. The inflammation markers in my blood were increased at that time. Who knows, but i would be really surprised, if withdrawals coul do something like this.
However, morning erections again were improved, which is a good sign from all perspectives. I hope that i can stabilize just a little more. At least my hopes are lit up in a way, that i feel the need and the motivation to work on my studies and that is always one of the best feelings for me.
Hope you all doing good.
Health-wise it really seems to get in the right direction right now. I am thankful for that.
Thats why i really want to get back to a good and consistent study routine. As i was trying to get in action, i was wondering why it still seemed to be so difficult for me to get going. I spend some thought about it, while wandering around in the kitchen and i noticed, that the vision for myself i have created over the last months and years wasnt giving me the kind of consistent motivational and emotional leverage i hoped it would. While thinking about it i recognized, that all the stuff i really wish for in life are right now so out of reach in my mind, that instead of giving me a reliable source of motivation, it builds up a lot of pressure, maybe even hopelessnes and resignation. I noticed, that right now i just cant really give into this idea, that this kind of future might be possible for me.
I then decided to lower my expectations. I will keep my big and "final" vision in mind, but right now, i need something i can really buy into, to give me the kind of motivation and hope to carry me through the tough times. From now on i will try to motivate myself with a vision of "my baseline", in which i am able to handle all important aspects in my life. Its not about acing them or being perfect, but just to have life under control. Foremost i dont want to be having depressions anymore. That is something far different from being completely happy and fullfilled. Its about not having negative feelings keep paralyzing you and keep having you under their spell. Its about functioning without being so overwhelmed, that you feel numbed down emotional and physically.
Its much easier for me to buy into the idea, that i could reach a situation featuring those elements. So thats what i will try to have in mind and keep shooting for, when its about getting myself motivated.
I dont know yet, how this will work, but i feel some kind of inner relieve while writing this and i think thats for sure a good sign.
Thats why i really want to get back to a good and consistent study routine. As i was trying to get in action, i was wondering why it still seemed to be so difficult for me to get going. I spend some thought about it, while wandering around in the kitchen and i noticed, that the vision for myself i have created over the last months and years wasnt giving me the kind of consistent motivational and emotional leverage i hoped it would. While thinking about it i recognized, that all the stuff i really wish for in life are right now so out of reach in my mind, that instead of giving me a reliable source of motivation, it builds up a lot of pressure, maybe even hopelessnes and resignation. I noticed, that right now i just cant really give into this idea, that this kind of future might be possible for me.
I then decided to lower my expectations. I will keep my big and "final" vision in mind, but right now, i need something i can really buy into, to give me the kind of motivation and hope to carry me through the tough times. From now on i will try to motivate myself with a vision of "my baseline", in which i am able to handle all important aspects in my life. Its not about acing them or being perfect, but just to have life under control. Foremost i dont want to be having depressions anymore. That is something far different from being completely happy and fullfilled. Its about not having negative feelings keep paralyzing you and keep having you under their spell. Its about functioning without being so overwhelmed, that you feel numbed down emotional and physically.
Its much easier for me to buy into the idea, that i could reach a situation featuring those elements. So thats what i will try to have in mind and keep shooting for, when its about getting myself motivated.
I dont know yet, how this will work, but i feel some kind of inner relieve while writing this and i think thats for sure a good sign.
Chris Oz
Well-Known Member
Maybe just try and chop up your life goals into little pieces you can take at a time. I mean break it down so it doesn't look like a mountain.
Like Will Smith said, you don't start out saying I'm gonna make baddest greatest wall in the world. No! You say I'm gonna lay this one brick the best way possible,that no one else in the world would have laid a brick as perfect as I've done in the next 10 mins.
You keep doing that and soon you'd have a wall.
That's a great concept to follow.
Secondly, one thing that can help too is to start programming your mind daily at the start of your day with Motivational audio messages, it's an easy and very effective way to get yourself motivated.
You could try other resources like video and books too.
Lastly, maybe you need to start surrounding yourself with successful people and positive guys who have acheived your goals or are in line if doing so. Ask them what's up, how they did it or simply just observe what they do.
The positive vibe and aura from them will keep you on the right path to reaching your goals.
Wishing you goodluck man.
Like Will Smith said, you don't start out saying I'm gonna make baddest greatest wall in the world. No! You say I'm gonna lay this one brick the best way possible,that no one else in the world would have laid a brick as perfect as I've done in the next 10 mins.
You keep doing that and soon you'd have a wall.
That's a great concept to follow.
Secondly, one thing that can help too is to start programming your mind daily at the start of your day with Motivational audio messages, it's an easy and very effective way to get yourself motivated.
You could try other resources like video and books too.
Lastly, maybe you need to start surrounding yourself with successful people and positive guys who have acheived your goals or are in line if doing so. Ask them what's up, how they did it or simply just observe what they do.
The positive vibe and aura from them will keep you on the right path to reaching your goals.
Wishing you goodluck man.