Very different day. Had difficulties to wake up. After studying for a while without getting much done, i decided to take a day off. I hadnt had such a day for a while now, but i figured that i also have to learn how to take an off day and vacation. As BlueHeronFan once said, the life style you choose after getting away from porn really has to be sustainable, Otherwise the day you will crash or relapse again lurks behind the corner. Working hard, pushing yourself to the edge everyday is not sustainable. Your work is only as good as your rest. Tomorow i will get back chasing good stuff. But today ive practiced how to rest without worries or feelings of guilt, allowing my mind to breath. This would not have been possible at the time, when my cravings and depressions were high. I had to distract myself constantly. Today went alright
Very likely to have a weird combination of venous leakage with pied. (25)
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Good Morning guys.
Studying, working out, moderate internet use, trying new hobbies instead, meeting with someone, setting myself little exercises throughout the day, starting to look out for a part time job. Thats the plan for today.
I might have a little bit of a flatline. Morningwoods low and sexual dreams and fantasies do not draw my attention and are much less. Its just part of the healing i guess.
Im now 7 months porn free and 2 months without MO.
Good day yall.
Studying, working out, moderate internet use, trying new hobbies instead, meeting with someone, setting myself little exercises throughout the day, starting to look out for a part time job. Thats the plan for today.
I might have a little bit of a flatline. Morningwoods low and sexual dreams and fantasies do not draw my attention and are much less. Its just part of the healing i guess.
Im now 7 months porn free and 2 months without MO.
Good day yall.
Day went pretty well.
Studying was a success, did work out, was eating healthy, met with a friend. Unfortunately i was napping, which i try to avoid and did watch youtube, but not in a crazy amount. Later i want to refresh my german grammar and literature knowledge to prepare for giving extra lessons to high school or middle school students as a parttime job.
Life continues to feel better.
Studying was a success, did work out, was eating healthy, met with a friend. Unfortunately i was napping, which i try to avoid and did watch youtube, but not in a crazy amount. Later i want to refresh my german grammar and literature knowledge to prepare for giving extra lessons to high school or middle school students as a parttime job.
Life continues to feel better.
All in all my day went pretty well. Changed my priority list, so that my finacial independence becomes a higher priority in my daily life. Firstly im more able to enjoy my time with friends and my freetime, when in feel like i did something for that area in my life and secondly it just became more important to me since i dont have to worry that much about other stuff anymore.
Was studying and preparing my job as a tutor. Met with two friends, was thinking and planing about my life and future. I avoided watching youtube, especially lets plays. Later i will do the laundry and will try to enjoy my freetime with activites, that i feel good about.
Today i noticed, that there are moments in my daily life, when i feel complete freedom and in control of sexual thoughts and desires. It feels very freeing.
Was studying and preparing my job as a tutor. Met with two friends, was thinking and planing about my life and future. I avoided watching youtube, especially lets plays. Later i will do the laundry and will try to enjoy my freetime with activites, that i feel good about.
Today i noticed, that there are moments in my daily life, when i feel complete freedom and in control of sexual thoughts and desires. It feels very freeing.
Thanks zander, i try my best here 
For a few days i did not have any sexual dreams, neither sex nor porn dreams. MWs not so good. In connection with the fact, that i havent got any desire to fantasize the last days, it feels like my body turned off the production of sexual energy at all. It does not feel unpleasant, but very unusual.
Still wanna stick to my priorities and habits i try to develop for myself. My main focus lies on being socially active and finding ways to enjoy my freetime without crazy amounts of internet, especially lets plays.
For a few days i did not have any sexual dreams, neither sex nor porn dreams. MWs not so good. In connection with the fact, that i havent got any desire to fantasize the last days, it feels like my body turned off the production of sexual energy at all. It does not feel unpleasant, but very unusual.
Still wanna stick to my priorities and habits i try to develop for myself. My main focus lies on being socially active and finding ways to enjoy my freetime without crazy amounts of internet, especially lets plays.
Day went well.
Did my studying, refreshed my grammar knowledge, did a work out, checked emails, met with two friends and arranged two meetings with other friends the upcoming days.
Still i feel like i should be more satisfied with myself. But maybe the habits just have to really kick in and produce some more results, before i start feeling more satisfaction out of my life and myself. Otherwise i ve gotta test out more things and still change things up.
Good day ya all. Kick this addiction in the balls.
Did my studying, refreshed my grammar knowledge, did a work out, checked emails, met with two friends and arranged two meetings with other friends the upcoming days.
Still i feel like i should be more satisfied with myself. But maybe the habits just have to really kick in and produce some more results, before i start feeling more satisfaction out of my life and myself. Otherwise i ve gotta test out more things and still change things up.
Good day ya all. Kick this addiction in the balls.
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wecandoit
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No matter how you feel, remember that porn doesn't heal anything. It doesn't bring anything good into your life and it doesn't make the problems go away.
Ill keep it in mind wecandoit.
Just a new day. I am focusing on the same things, i did the last days and will try to figure things out. I just keep working on the foundation.
This night i had a very strong nocturnal erection. Ive got the feeling that i might have to shift a little bit more towards the rewiring area and not just focusing on staying away from porn. I feel a little like an empty can sexual wise, that has to be refilled again with healthy sexuality. But i just will approach this patiently, still most important thing is nd will always be to not watch porn.
Just a new day. I am focusing on the same things, i did the last days and will try to figure things out. I just keep working on the foundation.
This night i had a very strong nocturnal erection. Ive got the feeling that i might have to shift a little bit more towards the rewiring area and not just focusing on staying away from porn. I feel a little like an empty can sexual wise, that has to be refilled again with healthy sexuality. But i just will approach this patiently, still most important thing is nd will always be to not watch porn.
Great day,
i think ive solved a big problem in my studies or came close to a solution. I did all my other stuff. Met with the girl from university. Im pretty sure we will just stay friends, but there is still a little bit of flirting involved, which i thin is a good idea. Helped a friend out, which is in a tough situation.
The groundwork to get life handled and become happy is building up i feel like.
i think ive solved a big problem in my studies or came close to a solution. I did all my other stuff. Met with the girl from university. Im pretty sure we will just stay friends, but there is still a little bit of flirting involved, which i thin is a good idea. Helped a friend out, which is in a tough situation.
The groundwork to get life handled and become happy is building up i feel like.
No MW, nearly no sex drive, but also very little cravings and fantasizing. It becomes a theme.
Plans are the same, getting the groundwork down to move torwards a good life. When i know my day is structured in a way, that im moving in a good direction long-term, i feel already much better, even though nothing has significantly changed, besides my attitude and my willingness to work things out.
Plans are the same, getting the groundwork down to move torwards a good life. When i know my day is structured in a way, that im moving in a good direction long-term, i feel already much better, even though nothing has significantly changed, besides my attitude and my willingness to work things out.
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wecandoit
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Good things, man. Keep it up. Make the plan and stick to it.
Pretty good day.
I had a very nice breakthrough in my studies. I met my buddy, who is struggling. I worked towards my part time job. I met a friend, which i wasnt initially too excited to meet, but i took it as my todays exercise to try new things and it was okay. The girl from university called me again, i am a little bit confused what type of relationsship she is interested in, but having contact with girls is never a bad thing, so i just play along for the moment and just see what it leads to. After posting this i will do my workout.
I feel alright, which is so much better compared to when i started this journey. Thats already worth it.
I had a very nice breakthrough in my studies. I met my buddy, who is struggling. I worked towards my part time job. I met a friend, which i wasnt initially too excited to meet, but i took it as my todays exercise to try new things and it was okay. The girl from university called me again, i am a little bit confused what type of relationsship she is interested in, but having contact with girls is never a bad thing, so i just play along for the moment and just see what it leads to. After posting this i will do my workout.
I feel alright, which is so much better compared to when i started this journey. Thats already worth it.
Hello again.
I try to quit smoking. I am a little bit nervous, because i am afraid, that it will increase my cravings to porn. But when i feel like i cant handle quitting both addictions at the time, then quitting porn is priority number one.
The first night was pretty uneasy, but still okay.
Okay, its time to get going.
I try to quit smoking. I am a little bit nervous, because i am afraid, that it will increase my cravings to porn. But when i feel like i cant handle quitting both addictions at the time, then quitting porn is priority number one.
The first night was pretty uneasy, but still okay.
Okay, its time to get going.
First day without smoking cigarettes. Feeling pretty good about myself. Of course also no pmo. My studies suffered a little, but i think this will change soon (hopefully tomorow). Will meet with the girl from university tomorow. I hope MW or some kind of erection will come again soon. All the other changes are nice, but having pied is the worst thing in my life right now for sure. Gotta practice being patient.
Day went well, studies went pretty well, did work out, did not smoke. I met with the girl from university and i think its clear, that she isnt interested (for now). Even though i didnt work very actively for a relationship, it shows me, that i have to work on my dating. Funny enough, when i met the girl another girl texted me and asked me for a date.
I feel like i got over the first big hump with quitting cigarettes. Today ist day 3 and i notice, that my cravings for smoking become less.
Looking at my porn addiction i am just so tired. So many months and my pied does not go away. I know that a lot of long time rebooters had to wait that long, so i will too, but sometimes its just discouraging. Good thing is my cravings are still gone and things doesnt trigger me so badly anymore.
Meanwhile i will just continue to work on the rest of my life. There is still a lot i can improve on. Since i started this journey i made a lot of strides, but i have to do even more. I am still not where i wanna be in life.
Looking at my porn addiction i am just so tired. So many months and my pied does not go away. I know that a lot of long time rebooters had to wait that long, so i will too, but sometimes its just discouraging. Good thing is my cravings are still gone and things doesnt trigger me so badly anymore.
Meanwhile i will just continue to work on the rest of my life. There is still a lot i can improve on. Since i started this journey i made a lot of strides, but i have to do even more. I am still not where i wanna be in life.